I really should stop reading love stories, Now I want a timothy lol if only I could find as love as pure, with a man who was intelligent.
My relationship status at the moment is in an unhappy place.
He really is a lovely guy, but his temper gets the better of him, he never tells me im beautiful and we argue ALOT.
If I have the courage to chuck him, hes the only 'friend' in my life and yet ill still be alone, id never have the courage to date again, after all ive been with this...

Despite myself I made it on time, 8am sharp, and considering we weren't being paid that was an achievement.

Awkward Moment One:
Characters: Benny, Actor 1, 2 and me. Location: Back of a taxi cab.

I felt it with the demoralising pang of recognition. My old playground emotions flushed in me one more time for old time sakes.

They were enthralled in conversation, the dynamic type, it was inventive spontaneous, boisterous, you had to volumize above...

So today my little neice had her 5th birthday party, I was surrounded my screaming children and scary looking adults.
I guess what made the anxiety feeling go away was my brother and older neice and nephew.
We laughed together, told jokes, had a dance, played around.
At times like that it makes me feel like I have friends, like a normal person, I could of held onto that moment forever and traded it for the selfless friends that had torn me apart.
I need more time of fun...

The original plan had been for a bargain hunting trip to London in the opportune aftermath of seasonal festivities. We'd catch-up on old times whilst with eagle-eye sensitivity scour the overstocks for prized items at wallet friendly prices. But London Zoo proved a worthy consolatory spot for reminiscing.

I was at ease from the outset, not plagued by my usual bothersome...

Well it's been a while. Hope everyone is keeping well.