So I had a warehouse job that I have quit after two days. My situation of being in uni, getting student loans and living with a parent that gets housing benefits has allowed me to do this.

The warehouse job was over soled by the person who recruited me for the job. The guy made the company seem much more exclusive that it really is.

The job mostly had people my age, British, multi-ethnic Londoners with some people who were immigrants. Doing the job made me notice how...

I was thinking of this yesterday. I realised part of my social awkwardness is basically just a lifestyle of not having enough interaction with others which makes me feel more like I am on a different wavelength to most people and have different priorities to most people.

Even if I was mostly the same but had a group of people to speak to, on an equal level, I think I would automatically be a bit less socially awkward or feel less socially awkward.

So to me it seems...

x

At most I have been a woman's friend, partly my fault as I didn't accept dates from a few girls in High School as I was scared and had identity issues. When I was 8 I played with some girls but it was widely discouraged by some family members. After that I just tried to fit in or hide to not attract any attention and hung around with other boys, usually the less cool ones.

It's as an adult that I have found that although it's difficult to talk to most people, sometimes it's like...

This week I have taken a break from most social media. I have limited my Youtube viewing, Temporarily deactivated my Facebook, Instagram and Twitter accounts and also took a break from SAUK. Limiting porn as well, it reminds me of the lack of women or people I see or interact with in real life. Since I only masturbate to porn, it makes me confused with my sexual taste. Whether it's real or porn induced?

I noticed as a result it has been easier to focus on certain things that matter...