Recently I just got accepted to for a temporary Stockroom Assistant job role and I feel good about making some money and doing the job. Whilst I do feel this type of job is perfect for me at the moment I do get the feeling that other people would expect me to appear more ambitious as I am still young and after studying up to my A-Levels it isn't as if going for further education or a higher paying job is out of my arms reach.

But then I feel although, I am honestly all up for studying...

Today has been one of those other Saturdays where I don't get up to that much all day. This follows after a not so good Friday. On Friday, I went for my morning jog, which makes me feel good except I feel I got weird looks from people on the street. My response was to mind read individuals and think that they thought I was weird for wanting to do something as active as jogging in the morning. Now that School has started, I guess the streets are a bit different and busier in the mornings now. Then...

Although it's obvious that Social anxiety is based on subconscious thoughts, today an recruitment session I had just made me so aware of that fact.

As I walked into the workers canteen, the waiting place before the session, I quickly rushed towards the empty table with just one women feeling anxious that the people in the canteen would notice me and maybe laugh or react negatively to me. I don't know rationally I am aware it isn't all about me and no one is perfect however in public...

Perhaps my situation isn't so bad that I need to move out immediately, but the home environment seems bad for my mental wellbeing.

Today there wasn't much food in the house, in fact the fridge is empty with just milk so I had Quaker Oats for dinner. Tbh I could have brought more food for today, like I did the last few days; but I decided f*** it, I couldn't be bothered as my mum hardly buys food herself and expects me to be buying food for the house the whole week. My mum is on benefits...

So about a month ago I closed down my old Facebook account due to the fact that I had lots of Facebook friends but most of them really didn't feel like friends, I wondered if I was just certain peoples friends so they can boast how many Facebook friends they had. Secondly I found Facebook a waste of time, I was just reading and viewing other people's lives while doing nothing in mines.

Now that I rejoined yesterday, I have decided that I am only adding people that have been friends...