My life has been really miserable recently. I can't help but wonder why i keep on living. People in my class always pretend to be nice to me but I know that they don't actually mean it.

For example:

Today my teacher gave us a seating plan. I don't like change so that put me in a bad place to start with. That wasn't the worse bit. I was surrounded by my least favourite people. So i started to have a panic attack. I was screaming, sweating, hitting myself and everything....