Loved reading your insightful appraisal. Feels like you're on the cusp of understanding all this but you naturally default to our SA-typical sense of hopelessness. Take a leap of faith past that and you'll find all it takes is a shift in attitude. You cannot change what you are but you can always change your attutude towards it. *You* define success and failure, not your past experiences. And who wants to be 'normal'? Stuff that, way too boring. Normality is just an illusion, a utopian model we create in our heads based on people we perceive as uber-confident and successful. People like L'Wren Scott, Mick Jagger's girlfriend who killed herself a couple of days ago. You see? Don't strive for normality. Just make the best of *you*. Therein lies the path to happiness.

I enjoyed it too- I really like the way you write and can empathise with everything you've said here

Beautiful picture. I often venture out on lone photography outings too so I could really empathise.

I really enjoyed reading that :)