So today I met an friend I hung around with in High School. I was also meant to meet another friend, but he didn't turn up. Our group was known as The Three Musketeers.

Prior to meeting my friend I was super anxious as he invited me to a pub and I don't go pubs. I thought that this would probably show the lack of social life I have. Anyways meeting up with this old friend went much better than I thought it would. I forgot to bring ID, just shows that I don't go clubbing or pubs...

A few months ago you may have seen a few posts on me feeling culturally isolated and feeling bad for the fact that I lack common knowledge and popular culture.

Well a few months on, today, my colleagues mentioned if I had seen a popular film and I said no again. One of my colleagues kind of half jokingly, half feeling justified threw a paper ball at me for saying no. I'm not going to lie, the paper ball hitting me, did piss me off. I could've been more assertive but instead stiffened...

Today I remember two instances where I felt disliked. A caller at work seeming to hang up on me, I don't know if that was due to how I communicated and the Tesco shopkeeper who I think seems to dislike me for some reason. And in my Office I don't feel as cool or respected as my other colleagues by the people in the Chinese Office next door to us. They don't seem even 1% interested in me, although I do get on well worth one of my colleagues at least.

Luckily today aalthough feeling...

Today I went to my first Social Anxiety self help group. Tbh, it wasn't fully what I expected, but you know what they say if you don't seek you don't find.

A few women cried as they talked in the group and in the group generally the topic was on how to deal with Social Anxiety. It was interesting listening to what others had to say. I didn't speak that much and didn't feel I was much a part of the group.

I might go to the group again or might not, but I know I have...