Its been a while ...

I managed to survive the long coach journey and i can now enjoy my own home. It's halloween and i was meant to go to a party but i bailed out, again. About the girl (...) that i was talking about last time. She started to text me less and less often so now i am starting to think that i can't ask her out. I told her before that i liked her and she just said "I don't know how to reply to that." I might just never socialise outside of school again because i am just absolutely useless. I asked her if she was free on Saturday she still hasn't replied after 3 days. I'm rubbish. I need to work on talking to people but no one wants to talk to me. The only people i talk to is in games like LOL (please don't judge) I don't think i can survive another week before the end of half term without having another panic attack. I am going to see her next week Tuesday because her school is coming over to mine for ccf. I don't know what to do. Her friends all know me so they are going to try to talk to me. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. i still have a week to myself. i am going to turn off the notifications on my phone and just listen to music all week until school starts. Then i am going to have to work out how to survive school life.