I was going to move out of my house but cancelled at last minute due to poor preparation but think I actually have to move out for my mental good. Part of me feels like I am blaming my house and situation for my behavior but part of me also feels that my home environment is a problem.

If I compare my mum to the vocally expressive woman I think she is similar in certain ways, cultural behaviors and some values, as they are both West African. However my mum never seems at peace with...

Well this week at work has been stressful. In fact at the moment I feel so drained that I couldn't enjoy the music I usually enjoy. I don't just feel drained from hard work though, it seems mostly mental.

This week at work I had to work with a brand new colleague and train him despite only doing this job for about 3 weeks and getting used to the timetable. I suspect that this guy is on the autism spectrum. He expects a perfect schedule, tasks to be done a certain way. For once, I...

I still have no real concept of small talk, I hear other people do it and know it goes on but it’s like hearing them speak Swedish and wondering what they are really going on about. Sometimes even when people occasionally spoke to me first I answered them and they looked like I had said something insulting and then moved on. This happened many times but one that springs to mind was when I went to see the queen visit a few years ago. I was taking pictures when an attractive woman said something quite...

So my first GCSE exam is next week Wednesday and i am killing myself rn worrying about it.

To make things worse i realised that i still have feelings for ... I really don't know what i should do.

Obviously i should be focusing on my GCSE's but its really difficult considering i see her every Tuesday and my 'friends' drag me infront of her every time.

Is it wrong to still like her after getting rejected? What should i do?

I woke up angry today, Tbh if I wasn't self aware I am sure that I would either die of a heart attack in 30 years time or do something evil. What I described in my last blog does make me angry and feels unfair. I don't feel pretending it doesn't make me angry would do much good, it would be me suppressing my real emotions and my anxiety, difficulty to express is due to suppressing feelings and actions.

I think I need to do something to release the energy since the energy isn't healthy,...