[Hopeforme]

Update on myself.

Since I made this thread, not much has changed. I think actually I may have gone backwards. I have been active in my addiction over that time including today and just not doing much. My life is a shit show basically at 31. I've never really worked before. In fact, I have never done anything seriously before apart from school and university where I did for sure put effort in and work hard. But I had no plan for a job afterwards and basically my 20s have gone. Granted some terrible things happened and I got seriously mentally ill at 23 but I am in this position now and life is just hitting me in the face.

My plan this evening is to do some job searching. I have started. I need to move out and get my basic independence and live out in the world. Not sheltered here. I am having psychotherapy at the moment. The style is psychoanalytic and psychodynamic. I don't think it is helping much.