[Wings]

i realise i'm spamming this thread all by myself, but want to vent and don't want to disturb the lounge threads where ppl are actually having a convo....
i spent most of the night googling propranolol and ppl's success stories rather than practising my presentation. also have 2 group exercises tomorrow morning and a written exercise. not sure why i'm nervous when i don't even care about the job. i want to take a pill now but there's the irrational fear i'm never going to wake up. i've been reading self help books in my spare moments all bloody day and i'm still not feeling very calm about it. to take my obsession further i've been watching youtube videos of nervous presenters and news reporters. all because of this silly 5 min presentation

edit: just discovered my old prescription of pillls expire in a month, which means i can't let them go to waste and i might as well take them now