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Originally Posted by haze-elle
Thanks jenny4 for starting this thread. Had no idea other people struggle to walk when being watched, too. I thought I was a freak for feeling this way. It's so weird - one glance from a stranger and i forget how to walk. Suddenly i'm tripping over my own feet and staggering about.
I totally empathise with you, blubs, having to walk past a stranger is so awkward. I never know where to look - do i look them in the eye and say hello, or do i keep my head down and not bother them? Always end up taking a sudden interest in my fingernails or a nearby shrub, and so end up looking weird anyway. Don't know why i do that, guess it's just panic.
Does anyone else worry about being watched by people outside when you're indoors, or vice versa? I get especially paranoid when it's really dark outside and i'm in a well-lit room with no curtains. The window becomes like a police mirror - everyone out there can see me, but i can't see them (in my paranoid and ego-centric imagination, there are dozens of people stood in the street, all watching me and laughing).
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This is me exactly.
My legs go all wobbly, yet stiff at the same time as I walk past people, I don't know where to look, or what to do, I'm glad it's summer now, so I can wear my sunglasses, and so I now peer a bit at people as I walk past them to see if they are staring at me, ( like I worried they were - and now they can't see my eyes )
and something strange happened - none of them were looking at me, they just didn't care, they maybe glanced at me, or looked down, or looked about...
But when I was too scared to look at people I never noticed this, I just ASSUMED they were always staring at me and judging me as I walked past.
It was a bit of a revelation and I hope I can put this knowledge to good use to help me overcome this.