[Silhouette]

Eventually the sun will expand and destroy all our pretty arses, so whether or not anyone laughed the joke I told does become insignificant. A sense of perspective is good. Too often I get anxious about something which days or weeks later seems like nothing. And I fluctuate between being too sensitive and not giving a ****. Problem is that when I don't give a **** my ****s are not given for anything. People didn't find the joke I told funny - don't give a single ****, the sun will explode, cancer etc. etc. There's a sense of liberation in not caring but this too easily slips into a sense of meaninglessness. Nothing I do matters, the sun will explode, cancer etc. etc. So I can care and suffer or not care and suffer. Myopia or hyperopia and nothing in between.