Well I was always different from my earliest memories, I don't think it mattered much in primary school, more in my teens when other kids were forming their sense of identity, socialising, going to youth clubs, then pubs and clubs. I managed to miss out on all that because of SA, though I wasn't desperately unhappy about it at the time. I just had a vague feeling that I might be missing out on something
It was just a relief that I was successfully avoiding one thing after another, start of a lifetimes pattern really.