[AireleeBray]

doesn't the worth & meaning vary from person to person?

I haven't found my true meaning & purpose yet. so far I guess it's supporting my family.
In the future I would like to help people in need, donate to food banks regularly & do charity runs.
I want to be more helpful in the world.

I like to think that my life, memories etc aren't pointless. I like to think we take the good parts with us in the next life (whatever that is)

Now I'm older & ive seen family members go through cancer, dementia, strokes & ive seen my dad lose his parents i do feel terrible that one day my children will go through it too. & to be honest I'm scared of the future.

But we can make happy memories for ourselves to talk about & remember when we can no longer do them. We can try to give people we care about fond memories of us when we are gone.

Maybe in the end it is all pointless, but would that frame of mind make it better?
I hope when I'm at my end I can close my eyes & remember & imagine alot of good ive had in my life.