[Azalea]

Isabelle I'm having the same problem right now except I dont go out and just drink at home. I went years not drinking at all because of meds but a few weeks ago decided I just dont care any more.
Like you I just cant stop when I start, I can be pouring another and thinking that I really dont want it but just have to do it.
The willpower thing is very difficult, I find the same with cheese and chocolate.