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Old 11th February 2017, 12:50
Merritt Merritt is offline
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Default Re: Borderline Personality Disorder

That's an interesting article, Muggins I've always struggled with the idea of having BPD because I thought it was something that only manifested outwardly, and I'm not an aggressive person and wouldn't dream of even raising my voice to someone. Despite this, I still feel like I'm somehow a harmful person, that I'm 'bad' in some way, and it's for the best if I keep everyone at a distance. It's like I expect there to be some evil in me that would come out if I gave it a chance, because why else do I constantly feel guilty?

Something I've wanted to post about, and I don't know if it ties in with this at all, is the feeling of being 'dirty'. Not necessarily in a hygienic sense, but feeling as if I'd taint someone if they got too close to me. Like my thought patterns would infect them somehow, or if someone touched me I'd leave some kind of mental residue on them.
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