[Merritt]

Possibly related to BDD... I'm losing weight, and I'm the lightest I've been in years (still a bit to lose though) but I'm more self-conscious than ever about being fat. Objectively I know I'm thinner, clothes that were tight on me a year ago are now a little baggy, but still I'll stare at myself in the mirror, especially when I've bought new clothes, and despair at how huge I am. I'm 11 stone, I can fit comfortably into a medium size shirt, but somehow the inner cries of 'Bloated! Too wide! Flabby! Dumpy! Embarrassing! Shameful!' feel all the louder.

At least try to make sense, brain.