Thanks for the replies people.
I can't lie though and tell you that I'll follow all the advice given.
I'll try, its all I can say.
I dont want to make excuses but my mood is all over the place.
One minute I'm fine being like this, the next I feel god awful.
Its so hard to think straight and focus on what I should be doing when my mind wont let me.
For years, it's been like being on a rollercoaster that I need to get off and just walk a straight line, but can't because the roller coaster won't stop.
This thread was more of a rant than anything too tbh.