[Schmosby]

I was always suicidal during my depression years, I've done my research and picked my method. I've come to terms with the fact I won't actually go through with it, I've never had the guts, I always think about the damage I will have done to myself if I survive. Imagine surviving as a vegetable for the rest of your life or ending up with some health condition that makes life worse than it already is.

I'm not really sure what I will do when I'm older, I don't want to be old, maybe the country will have come to it's senses regarding euthanasia.

I just want you all to know that I really feel for you, depression really is so difficult to live with and so misunderstood by so many people. I pulled through mine after 20 solid years and I hope you all do too.