[Kipper]

I thought she shared the same feelings that I felt for her but I seem to have mis interpreted what I thought were the signs and signals showing that. I don't think my SA got in the way because for the first 5 years our relationship grew despite my 'handicap' for want of a better word. She suffers from depression and is in an unhappy marriage. She is due to take early retirement from work in January 2020 and move away to live with her married daughter and family. I know I will never see her again after this. In the meantime I have to pretend to her that we are just 'colleagues'. Since August the situation had improved a little in that a few weeks ago she felt we were 'getting there' in terms of a resumption of friendship. However on other days it seems further away than ever.