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Old 19th September 2017, 15:37
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Old 19th September 2017, 17:14
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Old 19th September 2017, 17:19
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Sorry Ignore me.
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Old 19th September 2017, 19:12
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^^^ I understand, Clem. Sometimes you just don't get back any of what you put out. People can suck and take the piss sometimes.

I'm in a weird, melancholic, reflective mood. In the past two years, my grandfather has died, my cat has died, my mum has been diagnosed with treatable but incurable cancer, my one and only relationship ended, someone I considered a best friend turned out to be a petty, mean bitch and to top it all off, my depression and anxiety have both become really, bleedin' bad.
Today I heard from a friend that I haven't spoken to for a few years. In that time she's got married, had a baby daughter and is building a house. I'm more than happy for her but at the same time, it's really brought home how crap things have been and how they're going to get much worse before they get better (if that's even possible). I can't bring myself to think about losing my mum, she's the only real family I have. The thought of being completely alone in this world is a ****ing terrifying one.

Anyway, this has been some self-indulgent wallowing in self-pity from Kooky.
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Old 19th September 2017, 19:44
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I am in bits.

The only person I have or would ever talk to about this kind of thing has just watched his mum getting loaded into the back of a blacked out ford transit (15 plate with anthracite alloys). She wasnt just a neighbours mum, she was a very special lady.

Is it ok to be angry that facebook randoms who never met her found out hours before me even though she was not even 20 meters away ? I guess its just misdirected anger.

And also hungry.

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Old 19th September 2017, 20:18
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^ Thinking of you and your friend, it's very sad.
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Old 20th September 2017, 00:07
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^ & ^^

Thank you both, I feel so utterly powerless. I have two good friends in serious need at the moment, neither of whom I am able to contact and neither of whom I would even know how to help anyway. The more I think about it the less I think he is going to cope, poor fella



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Old 20th September 2017, 09:43
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^ Thinking of you, and your friend
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Old 20th September 2017, 10:00
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^ thank you
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Old 21st September 2017, 06:23
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Like all the world's sadness and fear has taken the form of some great, infinitely heavy beast and it's decided to curl up and sleep on my chest.
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Old 22nd September 2017, 22:24
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Emotional like theres a thin layer of sausage casing around a sausage made out of blurgh and urghh and insecurity and self-hatred and sadness, and the sausage is put under the grill and the casing splits and it starts to ooze out all its ugly innards over the grill.

but I got me some ale and pretzels so thats good.
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Old 22nd September 2017, 23:06
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^ Did you keep the receipt?
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Old 22nd September 2017, 23:44
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It's a bloody shame is what it is. I used to be quite fond of a Snickers. I'm glad i got out when i did

Jackie Chiles, what a character...
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Old 27th September 2017, 17:10
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Not good😿
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Old 31st October 2017, 13:43
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^

I’m feeling like a bit of a pariah, or piranha or whatever
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Old 31st October 2017, 16:51
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Sadly still feel a freak ....
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Old 31st October 2017, 17:15
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^^ why?
^ I'm sure you're not, or we all are!
I feel philhellenic. Also hungry. I've eaten nothing today but a chocolate bar from a local supermarket as everywhere was closed, or I thought it was until I found all the open places when the bus was about to turn up. Still, great scenery, and met lots of friendly cats and dogs today.
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Old 31st October 2017, 18:12
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^ I don’t know, it’s kind of my default setting to presume everyone despises me.

When are you leaving? Bring me back cheese!
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Old 1st November 2017, 11:23
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@ Always - If the person who turned up at your door unannounced is the same person who berated you for your appearance then they should think their self lucky that they didn’t get the door slammed in their face! Some people are so rude and just don’t think before they speak. And sometimes they intentionally put others down because they feel jealous and inadequate. I’m sure you look lovely always Always But that’s not the point. One persons opinion is simply just that - one opinion. Don’t take it as fact
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Old 6th November 2017, 00:32
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I want to rant, but there is no point. ( it's just throwing text out into the ether )
I wish I had someone to talk to. ( although listening to someone else's "woe is me" spiel would get very old very quickly )

My life has shrunk to basically nothing.
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Old 6th November 2017, 10:20
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^ loneliness is pants
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Old 6th November 2017, 11:05
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Old 7th November 2017, 18:54
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I understand what you mean. Life has a way of chipping away at aspects of our identity at times. It's all there though, it's just having the confidence to express yourself honestly.
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Old 11th November 2017, 07:47
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I feel like a worthless, hideous joke of a person. I’m disgusting.
I’ve wasted what should have been the best years of my life and now I’m just an ugly old slob who’s never achieved anything and has zero to offer and everything is downhill from here.
My epitaph should read ‘What a ****ing waste of time that was’.
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Old 11th November 2017, 09:43
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^ You know all the kindness, empathy, consideration and understanding you give out to everyone else?? You really should try some of that on yourself Clem. I could think of a few folk that your words above would apply to but seriously, none of those apply to you.
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Old 11th November 2017, 10:20
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^^ what would you do if you could? I think you still have lots of opportunities even if there are challenges to overcome to achieve them. I know you'd like to travel more and you're a great artist, and you love animals and nature.
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Old 11th November 2017, 13:57
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I feel numb, just been told my auntie has passed away this afternoon, I have always been bad at processing grief , I want to be able to support my mum and to process my own feelings , but don't know how , it's a relief in someways because she has suffered so much in the last few weeks.
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Old 11th November 2017, 15:08
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^ very sorry to see this. I'm sure you will be able to support your mum. Sharing your grief together will help both of you. It's always hard in the first few days. The loss has to sink in. As you say, your Auntie is no longer suffering so try to focus on that.
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Old 11th November 2017, 15:22
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Sorry to hear about your aunt
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Old 11th November 2017, 15:24
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I'm really sorry to hear that your Aunt has passed
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