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Bleak future
I've been in a foul mood for the past few months. I can handle the past, it's the future that is killing me. I see nothing. I mean I have no future, no real part to play. It's this realisation that has deadened my emotions, I no longer fear anything worth fearing. I'm still scared shitless of all the unimportant stuff that has managed to paralyse me. I guess that depression set in, I try and make light of whats going on but it feels right. The world around me remains beautiful, but for a shape of black waiting for nothing. I do apologise that this is such a bleak post, but it's how I really feel.
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But this is depression talking, because you're missing the crucial point that everyone can change for the better as well as the worse. It might not feel like it right now, but deep down you hopefully know it's true. Lack of hope for the future is a very common symptom of depression. |
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I,m sorry to hear of both your probs, i feel for you cos last week i was in the deep... i couldnt see anylight and couldnt face anything.
Today was my 1st good day in a while, so i know there is hope.. for me and both of you. |
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Were you on meds ?
What did you do to get yourself better LTBH ? |
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I became hopeful and the sadness went |
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... and that's why people have doubts about meds. They take so long to work and depression nearly always clears up on its own anyway.
Speaking personally, I've started taking Citalopram and can only assume it's had a big effect, because I've really started feeling better in the last 2 weeks and that's at week 6 of taking it, which is meant to be when it really starts kicking in. Also going for CBT which is helping, albeit in a more slow-burning (but probably longer-lasting) way. |
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Going over past experiences, and how we have 'ended up' where we are is always emotionally difficult and I hope your therapist is a good enough one to be gentle with opening up these memories, and is able to help you close them.
In the meantime, remember that depression is a chemical imbalance in your brain - an ailment as real as any other, and go easy on yourself. Try and do some small things that make you smile each day - eat something you like, listen to something you like, get some fresh air if you can. Let yourself heal as you would if you were suffering from flu, for example. You wouldn't expect yourself to jump up and go straight back to normal during a bout of flu, nor can you during a bout of depression. Hope you start feeling better soon! |
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yeh i'm in a similar pickle at the moment, i just graduated from a diploma course and i'm still yet to be offered a proper interview..
its weird that my three cousins all obtained a great job less then a month after they finished their courses and now they have houses or a mortgage. my sister was similarly lucky... i still have my part time hospitality job but at 26 its a little scary looking ahead at the future, things could change for better or worse in terms of finances and when it comes to making friends and progressing its not happening. i am trying but something is missing here. there is not enough balance. its like at least if i'm finding money and a job hard to acquire then my fun social life could balance things out but even that is very mundaine..... the thought of having a girlfriend is to humiliating for me, she'd have to be very understanding and not overly superficial, but then there is that whole meeting the parents "oh so what do you do?" ..."oh yeh i'm working as a kitchenhand right now" all line up for the queue ladies...and the thought of not being able to have decent healthcare or even a house and a decent job is a very scary thought because everyone in my family circle and extended circle have been successful in that area and its something we all deserve...so the pressure is high its that sort of pickle |