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^ Some people enjoy seeing the same film with the same close friend over and over again but looking at it from different angles
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^ That too
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Also, I just read up on the wiki page for 'psychological priojection", and the even Jesus mentions a form of projection: "Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye."
I didn't know Jesus was such a comedian. I know I can be guilty of this with my problems. |
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^ I thought having a child meant that you would have to meet all sorts of new people! But maybe it's just that you don't get to chose the kinds of people you're meeting.
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^ Aw, i'm assuming those friends don't have children themselves? Yes I suppose I imagined that you would meet people through toddler groups, then school or after school clubs etc. Maybe it's something you can work on a bit to help with your avoidance.
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I'm really sorry to hear that you're struggling at the moment. Maybe seeing the crisis team might help and they can help you to feel a bit more positive about things.
Take care of yourself. Sent from my SM-A530F using Tapatalk |
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I would have absolutely no problem whatsoever with not waking up tomorrow. Like, the idea doesn't bother me at all. I don't even feel particularly emotional about it, just bored and indifferent.
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^^ I think I'm the same. If there were a non-existence button you could press that erases every trace of you and so leaves no one upset, I'd press it.
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^Sorry to hear of your troubles. Being messed up is one thing, and not your fault, but the ‘I don’t deserve to live’ stuff is untrue and doesn’t help you. I can relate though, I punish myself in the same way. I count myself lucky that I never got into drink or drugs but I have plenty of my own problems. In fact I probably needed to drink a bit more to help me socially, as I became too ‘good’ and blocked myself off from experiencing life in any form, favouring fantasy, escapism and pornography, very addictive and isolating. Some of us need to be a little bit more good, others of us need to be that little bit more bad, depending on the problem. Do you also drink when you are alone? I wouldn’t say going out and over-drinking to ease social fears is as serious as solo drinking for the sake of it in one’s spare time.
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Don’t be so hard on yourself. Loads of people use alcohol to boost their self esteem and get them through social occasions. Watch them at a wedding or office party! First thing they do is head for the bar - and it’s simply to relax themselves and boost their confidence. The majority of people would have little social life if it wasn’t for alcohol. How many could face a party, for example, if they couldn’t drink or use drugs? Members of this forum seem to think the majority of people are strong, happy, confident and sociable, and that it’s only a minority of weirdos, freaks and losers who hide away. In fact, huge numbers (at least a third) of people struggle. Even popular, loud people, who seem really confident, often secretly loathe themselves. I do know what you mean about alcohol. Thankfully I don’t have much of a taste for it. I do drink, but it doesn’t do much for me. If ecstasy, coke, mushrooms and weed could be bought in Boots, I would never drink s*itty alcohol again. Plus, I end up acting like a total prat |
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You do have choices about your relationship, but you're going to have to think about what you want to do. Does your partner also not feel in love with you or is she under the impression that things are fine between you? There's no reason that you'd lose access to your daughter if you split up (as long as you're on the birth certificate?!) But are you living in another country right now, or is your partner from abroad? Because obviously depending on the country the laws might be different so you might want to look in to that. Losing yourself in alcohol will never be the answer and could make things for you a lot worse long term, I think you know that. I don't think you're as avoidant as you might think because you obviously want to socialise and you're putting yourself in situations where you're trying to. |
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I'm so sorry to post here when others are more deserving. It's just my suicidal ideation has got so strong lately that it has turned into comforting fantasisies. Nearly 40 and my life has come to absolute nothing I just want it to all end.
I don't know how to cope with the feelings of despair I have. Such a mess is my life. |
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^ Please don't apologise for posting on this thread. Your thoughts and feelings are equally as important as everyone else's on the forum so of course you deserve to share them here.
I'm sorry that you are struggling with feelings of despair. I know that when you are stuck in such a dark place it's impossible to believe that anything can ever be okay again. Reaching 40 can be a big milestone for many people as they take stock of their lives. It can be a very depressing time if your life now is very different to how you hoped it might have turned out in your younger years. All I can say is that one of the most significant and positive life changing events in my life didn't occur until I had turned 40 and I know this is how it's been for many others too. I also know of members who only properly started living in their 40's and 50's so, believe me, it's never too late. If your suicidal fantasies bring you some kind of comfort then I don't think that's necessarily a bad thing, but please don't act on your fantasies as you still have a lot more life to live and one that may be open to all sorts of positive future opportunities and possibilities. Do you have any family or friends that you can talk to? Or understanding online acquaintances that you can chat with? It's very important to reach out to others when you are feeling this way, even if it only serves as a distraction until the very worst of your feelings have passed. Posting as you have here is an important first step. Take care |
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^^Yes, please don’t apologise. This is a place for you to share those feelings, many here can relate with you; myself included.
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I think our sense of other people’s confidence is relative to our own. For some reason mine has dropped badly over the last few years, and now everybody appears super confident. It’s all a matter of projection I think. Young people in particular seem so confident, expressive, open and intelligent to me, and I sometimes experience mild panic attacks because I can’t process what I’m feeling, like I’ve really fallen off the edges of reality, and it’s terrifying.
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I keep having suicidal thoughts recently not enough to act on them but they keep coming up all the same.
I really liked my job when I first started but there has been a change in management earlier this year. This seems to have resulted in issues arising which were not present before such as people being shouted at and general bullying behaviour among staff. I've been on the receiving end of this behaviour myself and it seems to be taking place at all levels across the board. The situation has been going on long enough for me to know that I'm no longer happy working here. I now dread going into work because I don't know what mood some people are going to be in. Honestly I feel as if I'm walking on eggshells. The bullying behaviour is also bringing up bad memories for me from my previous job. |