How is everyone feeling? (31)

[anewyear]

Originally Posted by biscuits

^ hope it all goes okay. I'm in bed with my car right now

Car...??!!

[Professor Willow]

My anxiety is being a real pig today, I'm not sure why I'm anxious but the old adrenaline and palpitations are having a party.

I wonder why so many of us feeling it today.

for everyone who needs one

[Dougella]

^^^ Thanks Consolida

[Toxic]

I don't feel..bad

I've actually got the lergy, my chest hurts..my throat is killing me, I'm finding it hard to talk and I can't stop coughing


BUT we finished work today till jan 2nd, 12 glorious days of pretending I'm a student with no responsibilities I'm happy to take feeling shit whilst being work free!

[Counterpoint]

I think I might be a psychopath, a psychopath who was just brought up extremely well to be polite. I don’t seem to feel anything except fear. My anxiety has reached extreme levels that even I find worrying. I’m beginning to see no way back to myself. Constant guilt and shame, I cannot enjoy myself or express myself. Social events are awful, people are so extroverted and intelligent. I’ve often read posts about people linking SA with high intelligence but that is not true for me. I think a lot of my struggles are related to lower than average intelligence. I read a spirituality book and tried to be more ‘giving’ but I just feel more and more awful about myself, that I’m fundamentally a bad person who had to work very hard to be a good person. It is exhausting.

[Jen.]

Originally Posted by Jen.

Worried. Tomorrow I'm going to stay with my parents for a week and they said they have something important to talk to me about, but didn't want to say what it was over the phone. It sounded ominous and now I'm worrying about all kinds of things it could be.

It turns out my parents are planning on retiring soon, selling their house and moving back to the US My mum says she wants to spend time with her parents (they're in their 80s). I've now got to spend my time here for Christmas going through loads of stuff from my childhood to see what I want to keep and take home with me. This feels awful. At least my sister will still be in the UK, although she doesn't live near me.

[Appear]

Originally Posted by Counterpoint

I think I might be a psychopath, a psychopath who was just brought up extremely well to be polite. I don’t seem to feel anything except fear. My anxiety has reached extreme levels that even I find worrying. I’m beginning to see no way back to myself. Constant guilt and shame, I cannot enjoy myself or express myself. Social events are awful, people are so extroverted and intelligent. I’ve often read posts about people linking SA with high intelligence but that is not true for me. I think a lot of my struggles are related to lower than average intelligence. I read a spirituality book and tried to be more ‘giving’ but I just feel more and more awful about myself, that I’m fundamentally a bad person who had to work very hard to be a good person. It is exhausting.

It's highly unlikely you'd meet the criteria for psychopathy if you predominantly struggle with anxiety, lack of affect and feelings of low self-worth. (Though these things may underlie the early development of psychopathic traits, most won't have insight into it.) It sounds more like you're struggling with depression to me. It might be worth speaking to your doctor about it if you haven't already. I hope those feelings pass for you soon.



I'm feeling like a big idiot (and I really am).

[newbs16]

Anxious, they've just sent me an appointment for the new year to go and see the mental health practitioner.

[Mo34]

^ Good luck newbs, I'm sure it will be fine

[Mo34]

Like a twit. Just got a phone call from my counsellor wondering where I was!! Supposed to have an appointment at 10.30am. I however had 2.30pm (are usual time) firmly planted in my head
She's said to come at 1.30pm instead.

[newbs16]

^ Thanks Mo and biscuits, I hope you feel less anxious soon.

[Professor Willow]

Not feeling very festive, it's too damp and muggy for Christmas.

[Messer]

^ sorry you're struggling biscuits. Don't feel bad about posting, that's what we're here for, I hope it helps you.

I'm happy and relieved that my most difficult Xmas socialising is over, some more still to go, but I have hope it'll be tolerable. I like Xmas in lots of ways, but some of it is so hard.

[humphrey]

^^ I know exactly how you feel, I have felt like this at Christmas many times in the past. I usually manage it by disappearing to my room for a couple of hours in the afternoon to recharge.

One year, I was at such a low point at Christmas, I couldn't stop myself crying at the table while we were all having lunch. The worst thing was that it ruined everybody else's Christmas. I was a such a low point I couldn't stop myself.

Fortunately I only have a brother and sister left now, so their is only for of us for lunch, bad news is I have to cook it, which really stresses me out. This year has not been a good year for my MH, I just hope I get through tomorrow OK.

I am off this week, which helps me as when people at work go on about what they are doing at Christmas it just makes me feel even lonelier than I am normally. All this wish people the best for Christmas, just feels so hollow.

[Mo34]

Had a nice day. Went up to Mind, we all went off to a cafe for tea/coffee/whatever had a good laugh. Afternoon went to the hall and just sat chatting. Cheered me up to be around other ppl and out of the house.
My neighbours still out/his van isn't here so at least I'll get a little bit of peace, well till he gets home. I'm getting to the point again of just not wanting to be at home.

[Appear]

^ Really hope you're okay, lovely. Try to be kind to yourself and do some things you enjoy. And I'm always here if ya need me (though hopefully you know this by now).

[3stacks]

^^ Hope you feel better soon Biscuits

[Mo34]

@biscuits. Thanks yeah hopefully - more likely at his mums for xmas.
I'm not here xmas day night in any case.

Hope your feel better

[humphrey]

Well I've had a not so bad Christmas Day, better that I thought I was going to. I had massive anxiety about cooking the lunch this year, even though I've done it for the last 5/6 years. But everything was ready at the right time, and it was all cooked well, everybody said the really enjoyed it. I must admit when I started mine I wasn't sure but I really enjoyed once I got started.

I went overboard this year with the drink, 1 glass of sherry & 3 glasses of wine with the lunch, which more than I've drunk in the last 6 months!

I am feeling a lot better than I did yesterday and this morning, fortunately don't have to go relative visiting or anything, so we have just had a quiet afternoon in digesting the lunch.

I will still be pleased when tomorrow comes as that's the end of it for another year.

[Schmosby]

^The sherry I wanted from Sainsbury's wasn't in stock at any of the 4 branches I checked on any of the occasions I checked, so I didn't get any. I'll keep checking for it and buy a bottle for next year.

I've been ill the last few days and my Spotify ran out today, mum was being a bit of a twonk, as always, I also had problems installing a game from the windows store resulting in me having to reinstall windows twice. Considering that, I'm feeling pretty ok.

[newbs16]

^ Is sainsbury's sherry nice then?

[newbs16]

^^^ It sounds like you deserve a rest today. Happy boxing day

[Neil]

I think the manual got thrown out with the umbilical cord.
In one of those "life is bleak abandon all hope" type of moods.

[T]

41 and i'm still here life is tough but i'm still fighting away

[Dougella]

^ Why guilt?

[Dougella]

^ Guilt and shame really make depression a lot worse, or atleast that's what I found. We can't help the problems we have, we wouldn't have them if that was the case. Anyway, I'm rambling but I hope you can feel much better, you have no reason to feel guilty.

[Blackflies]

Blessed.

Originally Posted by Dougella

Generally crappy, I have a headache. But after we (my partner and I, not the royal we) get something over with today then maybe we'll be able to feel a bit more christmasy.

Just wanted to say, I absolutely adore your Christmas bauble!

[Dougella]

^ Oh thank you, it was actually a present someone gave to my Mum because she loves Louis Theroux

[anewyear]

Slightly pi55ed but better for it. Just had a good old chat with Mrs about the toxicity of Facebook. We've got friends (lol) who posted their Christmas pictures with jovial family and friends. It didn't look like our Christmas. But, they are different people, with different scenarios. For example their parents aren't widowed and bitter. They've had help through the years rather than being helpers for like 25 years. No point in comparing "achievements" (be it material or friendship circles or whatever) with people who have a totally different support network.

[girlinterrupted]

@biscuits @nanuq I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better. You're both clearly kind and lovely I hope you find some way to feel better soon.

I am.....painfully sad,and alone. Oh and hopeless,let's not forget hopeless.