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Thirtysomething teenager
This post is more a rant than anything else.
I have recently been contaced (after several years of silence) by two old mates (one from school and one from uni). And I found out they both have two kids now. Also, a friend of mine just got her first child. So I suddenly seem to me be surrounded by moms and small kids. And how does it make me feel? That I'm once again left so far behind life. Surely I like kids and I want to see them, but at the same time I'm painfully reminded of my inadequacies (no partner let alone the possibility to choose whether to have children or not). I am an outsider who they can invite once a year to admire their children, but not someone who could really participate in their lives, because I have nothing to contribute. Also, at work I don't really belong to any agegroup. I feel so out of place with all the thirtysomethings, but equally out of place with the teenagers and twentysomethings, who only live for weekends, drinking, partying and looking for partners. I know the key is not to compare yourself to others, but sometimes it just seems impossible. |
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Hello Raindrop.
I am guessing you are not a 30-something from the sound of our email. Well I am. And I tell you, it is even harder if you are 30-something and still haven't met a partner who understands you!! Or who wants you for the person you are. Time is running out for me (said my gran this Christmas!!!). I actually joined Friends Reunited recently (as the result of an ex who told me I was anti-social), and the people who got in touch with me were all married with kids. They all still lived in the same place. And they were all teachers! Weird. But there is no point judging yourself by everyone else. It's pointless, and I don't think it helps. Everyone is different, and having SA is always going to restrict the potential for following everyone else. Even if you wanted to . . . You are who you are, and things will come to you in good time. Just be patient . . . SeaW |
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I don't think SeaW intended in that way, it looks like he thought you were a teenager who felt in their thirties. There is nothing wrong with your writing style and you conveyed your point very well.
I can perfectly relate with your situation. Unfortunately, I don't have any solutions yet. Comparisons are a killer and I am constantly making them, it's hard not to. The only option seems to be to weather the intense pain we feel and try to build some connections. The good thing is, once those initial contacts are in place, they snowball. It's the initial formation of them that is so difficult for us, who are hypersensitive to people. |
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Hi Raindrop,
I know exactly how you feel, as I was in a similar situation with my friends, only I am the opposite side of the coin. I dropped out of uni, got married and had a child at the age of 20, whilst my friends all stayed on, got their own careers, moved to different parts of the country and have only started to settle down in the past few years. So, for quite some time, I felt a bit out of it and like I had suddenly grown three heads!!! Then, there was the fact that they used to want to keep having little reunions - nights out, weekends away here and there, which I couldn't always manage due to family and money, and over time, I felt myself becoming more distant, whilst they just got even closer. |
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Kat, I'm sure you must have felt like an outsider with your group of friends. Have things changed to better now that your friends have settled down, as well? |
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I`m a 38 year old teenager as my life hasn`t changed much since i was one , still single and always will be now.
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I'm 50 and I fit into this, I have nothing in common with most people my age.
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This is amazing - I've only recently discovered I have SA and have always wondered why I couldn't hold down a relationship (I have just turned 30).
Surfing on the web - there is an american dating site for people with SA, maybe we could set up a personals thread here? Or is there already one? |
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I'm 30 and soooo don't feel it! In a good way - in that I don't look it and get on well with the 20 - somethings I work with and don't feel at all older than them. But also in a bad way - in that like others have said - my friends of the same age are mostly settled / in long term realtionships / married / have or are planning to have kids. And I'm permanantly single, never seeming to meet anyone appropriate who I'm attracted to and wonder if I ever will!! I recently had a thing for a 24 year old who was engaged but who flirted outrageously with me and who I snogged on 3 different occasions..mmm, not appropriate at all!!! Knocked this one on the head now, thank God, but the fact remains, I'm a 30year old teenager!
Like I said, some aspects of it I like - I still really enjoy drunken nights out with single mates and I like the fact I can be immature and have a laugh etc. But I feel the clock is ticking and I would like to meet someone and have the option whether to have kids or not. |
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This has been discussed and put forward by people over the years, pretty much since the start of SAUK but most of us agree that people are here for support and information not to get picked up but anyway, many relationships have formed on here without the need of a personals forum. |
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I had a major "unsure teenager" feeling today at work. I asked my current team leader to show me how to do one particular task (which she had promised to show several weeks ago, but had forgot). And what does she reply? "Oh, great you came up and ask - you are so quiet that it is so easy to forget you!" Nice. She said it smiling friendly, but I was so annoyed inside. This person is about my age, so it all felt just soo partronizing.
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I am 30 but I still get asked for ID and feel people still treat me as a sulky teenager, this probably results in me not acting my age as I should on most occasions. |
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I'm in my 30's and have a daughter. It doesn't change SA or how I feel in social situations. Having kids doesn't make you change in any way but it alters your daily routine, you get used to it but I'm still the same person. I can remember feeling like you do now before I had a kid. During my twenties, I found out that everyone from my old school were either married with kids or they had very successful lives. Also I still feel as if I'm a teenager.
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Someone could always start their own dating site using free forum hosting and have a link to it in their sig I s'pose.
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