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I'm trying to get my head around why people feel so terrible at this time of year.
I'm feeling really stressed and distracted by stupid emotions because I really have been so isolated and rejected by literally everyone I've come across in my life up to this point and the things people are saying here make a lot of sense to me, but it always made sense to me and I didn't wish loneliness on anyone, yet it was my family that was very loving family and some great Christmases with lots of people inclusive of others who were alone, but I'm now on track to spending my nye and 30th birthday completely and utterly alone unless I make a bit more effort with people and they stop ignoring and rejecting me when I do for some kind of tiny power kick. I don't deserve this at all, I have very little understanding for it, I mean I can understand getting back at someone, or having the last laugh, as it were. |
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I’m feeling really angry with myself for worrying so much about what others think of me, why I have allowed this to affect me so much most of my life. Why I am such a negative person and hardly ever remember the positives. I just feel like such an awful person. I am angry at the people who first made me feel this way all those years ago and angry that I let it hold me back so much from being my real self. I just want to know myself but I don’t really feel that I do. I want desperately to be a happy positive person but I don’t know how.
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^ You're not an awful person. It's good if you've realised that you often think negatively (a lot of us with SA do that) and it can take time and work but you can change your thought patterns if you become more aware of them.
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Thanks Dougella, I am having cbt and I am trying to think more positively but it really is hard. I know I cant expect things to change overnight, but I worry I’ll never be able to stop all the negative thoughts. I’m not going to give up hope though, I really want to change so know that’s a positive thing.
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Gradually worse and worse this week and I don't really know the cause, there's definitely nothing specific I can think of. I've been coping okay with the darker season so far through using a light alarm and vitamin D, but maybe it is related to the time of year, I don't know. It doesn't feel like it is though.
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Feel like the most hateful person on the planet
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I'm having CBT atm but the therapist isn't great, but she is trying her best. She just suggests meetup when I say I want to do the group session but she is seeing me more regularly and for onger than any other NHS therapy I've had before. |
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^ Thank you as always for your kind words newbs x
@ Biscuits, I think you may well have gotten the wrong person because I'm certainly not loving or kind but thank you for the sweet words anyway x |
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Broken up with girlfriend. Feeling lost. An awful week.
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^^ I've been there, this triggered a worse depression in me this year, but I've been tracking my mood daily, and I can honestly say that I've managed to boost my mood to beyond what it was this time last year when I was speaking to her daily, I was suicidal for about 2 months before having rTMS treatment which has had a lasting effect it seems. For many years I didn't really have 'good' days at all really, but since then its been easier, along with a few external things improving also.
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Really quite down. Maybe it's cause of xmas etc, I don't know
Saw Pathfinder/CPN on Thursday and I can see it's a pointless exercise. She said so you like CBT? Errr no. I despise CBT. She then waffled on about how it's evidence based etc.. She tried to challenge me on counselling (why does the NHS hate counselling so much? ) and said well you've had a lot of counselling where has it got you? errr well I wouldn't be where I am without counselling thank you very much infact I wouldn't be here at all. Ffs. I'm, seeing her again in January. She wants me to think about what I would like my life to be like. Well I would like a home, a family, employment and to be normal. So we won't be achieving any of that will we.... Absolute waste of ****ing time. As awful as it sounds I sometimes wish I had bipolar or schizophrenia cause at least your a valid mental health problem, you have sa you might as well not exist. I'm just waiting for the obligatory library book on prescription, incorporating the obligatory patronising CBT exercises. I can see at some point I'm going to have to go private to get a proper diagnosis. There seems to be no other way forward. |
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^ Why are they so obsessed with CBT! Ofcourse other forms of therapy and counselling are appropriate for people in different circumstances, sorry she was so rubbish. (Also the evidence of CBT for me was that it didn't move me forward at all either )
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∆∆ my other half is a therapist and from our conversations it seems like CBT is a bit reductive for a lot of people, It can be useful in some circumstances but doesn't really get to the root of anything.
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^^ I know! I suspect it's cause it's cheap and can be delivered by non qualified ppl. That and NICE is obsessed with evidence, CBT is easy to measure.
^ Yes, it seems to be. I had a lovely chat with a locum GP some time ago and he at least had the honesty to admit that CBT wasn't going to help someone like me as the problem is too deep rooted. |
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I found a new crime doc on netflix so have cheered up a bit.
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Hello. I’m feeling depressed. Is this the correct thread to post this in?
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^ what's up mountainstream? Bad day or more to it than that?
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I've been reminded again how worthless I am.
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Tired of being used and manipulated. Can't believe how genuinely crazy some of these people I've met are. Makes me feel like crap and always second best.
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