I remember a time when all I cared about was myself.

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And other peopels problems did'nt affect me.

I was much younger, in my own tunnel and focused on myself, but now I find myself overwhelmed by so many things.

Its hard to even come here at times and read peoples posts where they feel lost and are so desperate for help.

I'm so bogged down by my own BS I can't help them and I want to help them.

It makes me feel more sad tbh.

Sometimes I'm feeling OK, then pop in here and read someones desperate post or thread and it just brings me right down.

I try and tell myself to just think of number 1, but suffering from mental illness and so many problems for so many years is a real humbleing experiance, and something that opens you up more to other peoples suffering.

I wish I could go back to being the way I was sometimes, just a selfish git who's world was more closed off than it is now.

But then I'd feel guilty for feeling like that because I'd feel like I'm fecking over my own people.

Damn, I just wish I could sort myself out then help other's instead of being so fecking fragile all the time.