irritating pr**k or total mute bore.

[!>Y\e5l-%h-NMw>cH]

There seems to be no inbetween with me and no balance at all.

I either piss people off or come across as a total mute bore.

Thats the way I feel anyway.

I really have no idea how to behave, what people want from me, do they want anything at all or do they just want me to continue to fecking rot in my luxury comfort prison?

I dont think they would even care enough for the latter tbh.

I'm as good as dead to everyone I used to know.

[danielv]

Im in exactly the same boat. I dont have an answer for you sorry. When you figure it out, let me know!

[!>Y\e5l-%h-NMw>cH]

I felt a bit sorry for myself and a bit pissed when I made this thread.

Oh the joy of multiple rapid mood changes every day. :rolleyes:

[karl-32]

hi frustration , i know what you mean but i think i'm more total mute or bumbling idiot that says weird things

[!>Y\e5l-%h-NMw>cH]

Monster Man Hugs to my SAUK brothers.

Yep, I feel like a clumsy, bumbbleing idiot too at times tbh.

Just can't get my shit together in anyway, shape or form.

[E Dub]

Thats funny cos I had you down as a boring prick






Only messing, your cool

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Originally Posted by lilly

well you dont piss me off.

but please dont beat yourself up hun when you go silent round people you are most likely doing this cos your sitting there judging yourself, the same way your judging yourself now, but this can gradually be overcome if you start to look it at.

Originally Posted by Ukshadow06

Thats funny cos I had you down as a boring prick






Only messing, your cool

Originally Posted by Cinyc

That's not the impression I've got of you. I can relate to a lot of your experiences, and as I said on the Phone Club thread, I reckon I could manage a half decent convo with you - better than that of many bar room bores at least.

I don't know mate.

I mean I've never even had a proper convo with you on here.

I find it easier to speak to females online though.

I find it easier to just try and stick to playful banter overal and only really speak to one person here properly.

Bah, I probably could have a good convo with you in real life if I could manage to relax myself for once.

[Neil]

I alternate between these two descriptions on a daily basis. This is hard to convey on an internet forum as by the very act of posting you are participating in a discussion and therefore aren't mute. But in real life I am as mute as they come, I then get frustrated by my muteness and the consequential self-hatred boils up and overflows in the form of bile and spiteful comments directed at others. Other people irritate me at times but it is extremely rare for me to feel hatred toward them. I do hate myself however and I have a tendency to direct this pent up anger at others, especially loved ones. It almost feels like a struggle to contain that negativity within me and I choose to externalise it in an inappropriate way. A more sophisticated person would write angsty poems or draw paintings to express and channel their inner feelings. Alas I have the artistic capability of an amoeba.

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Originally Posted by Neil

I alternate between these two descriptions on a daily basis. This is hard to convey on an internet forum as by the very action of posting you are participating in a discussion and therefore aren't mute. But in real life I am as mute as they come, I then get frustrated with my muteness and the consequential self-hatred boils up and overflows in the form of bile and spiteful comments directed at others. Other people irritate me at times but it is extremely rare for me to feel hatred toward them. I do hate myself however and I have a tendency to direct this pent up anger at others, especially loved ones. It almost feels like a struggle to contain that negativity within me and I choose to externalise it in an inappropriate way. A more sophisticated person would write angsty poems or draw paintings to express and channel their inner feelings. Alas I have the artistic capability of an amoeba.

I used to be like this a lot, but the truth is that the only way I've stopped being like this is by isolating myself to an extreme level.

I also have the artistic capability of an amoeba.

Originally Posted by MaskedGirl & Cinyc

I am also like this offline! I either mope and come across as an irritating , moody cow who says nothing or a chatterbox.
I was always gettng it wrong when forced to socialise with "" but i've learnt we can only be ourselves and when I relax people usually like me , or at least don't hate me.
Don't be so hard on yourself! I might not agree with some of the things you say but you are one of the few men on here who likes banter and joking , that is a good thing
When I first joined I was shocked by how little you could joke with some people as i'm not used to it. It's a boring cliche but being from Merseyside means i'm used to people who make jokes a bit , funny or not.

There's nowt wrong with a bit of banter and joking around at times. :D

What do you mean you don't agree with everything I say?

Yeah, I do like to try and joke about a bit here and try to get people to laugh.

I'd like peope to get my sense of humour because tbh in the real world it's just none exsitant most of the time.

I'm far too uptight and hypervigilant.

Its much easier online, but I've lost the ability to feel relaxed enough to joke with people and have jokes fired back at me and be able to take them in the real world.

I used to have a right laugh with some of my old mates, and hope that I could meet people in real life one day who get my sense of humour again, so I can let go and have some good ole belly laughs again .

[dandandan]

I know exactly how you feel, OP.

But what I've discovered is, if you just stand there with a big smile on your face, completely silent, people will automatically warm to you. Seriously, I've been entire nights barely saying a word only to be treated like this generation's greatest wit.

Either that, or I really am some kind of unwitting slapstick comedy genius. Actually, yeah, I prefer that explanation.