Constantly feeling like you have to earn everyones respect

!>Y\e5l-%h-NMw>cH · #1 12th March 2010, 14:51

This is why I'm such a mess and started to isolate myself so much.

I felt like I could never just be myself because myself was constantly being ridiculed.

I felt like I had to constantly try and earn peoples respect which is a full time job and never ending.

I just want to be myself because it's too drainning and I can't live like that anymore.

Why could'nt people just feck off and leave me alone?

I dont have the energy to keep fighting anymore.

I can't present myself as someone deserving of respect anymore.

black_mamba · #2 12th March 2010, 15:10

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Originally Posted by Frustration!

Why could'nt people just feck off and leave me alone?

Do you accept that it is you causing these difficulties and not anyone else? Because I think that would lead to resentment...

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I can present myself as someone deserving of respect anymore.

Putting on a facade is exhausting. Give yourself a break, have a kit kat, put it in your tea, and use it like a straw. *slurp* Fecking yummy!

no0ne · #3 12th March 2010, 15:12

penguins are better for drinking tea through bite the corners off drink the tea through it then stick it in ya gob whole.

!>Y\e5l-%h-NMw>cH · #4 12th March 2010, 15:51

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Originally Posted by black_mamba

Do you accept that it is you causing these difficulties and not anyone else? Because I think that would lead to resentment...

Putting on a facade is exhausting. Give yourself a break, have a kit kat, put it in your tea, and use it like a straw. *slurp* Fecking yummy!

I blame myself AND other people tbh.

I knew I needed to change years ago and did make ago of it but it was such hard work I had a nervous breakdown which was hell.

Part of the reason I'm so scarred of trying to change again and get out of my comfort zone is because it's such hard work and I fear haveing another breakdown.

I can't go through the extreme paranoia and episodes of pyshcosis again.

Oh and, finger biscuits > kitkats.

!>Y\e5l-%h-NMw>cH · #5 12th March 2010, 15:53

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Originally Posted by BFG

penguins are better for drinking tea through bite the corners off drink the tea through it then stick it in ya gob whole.

Orange clubs are pretty good too.

Nothing beats an Orea and a mouth full of warm milk though.

W!llow · #6 12th March 2010, 18:20

Sorry to hear you're feeling like that Frustration though unfortunately I can relate. I really know I just need to feel better and more sure in myself and then it wont matter. When you are low it just feels more impossible.

black_mamba · #7 12th March 2010, 19:19

Maybe we need acceptance from others because we do not accept ourselves? --> lack of self esteem?

Yeah, I know. Same old same old :rolleyes: ...but it's true!

no0ne · #8 12th March 2010, 19:35

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Originally Posted by Frustration!

Orange clubs are pretty good too.

Nothing beats an Orea and a mouth full of warm milk though.

i shall have to try that, top tip

Louise 5 · #9 13th March 2010, 09:57

I used to worry so much about what people thought of me that it was exhausting. I felt that I couldn't act naturally and be myself because I was always trying to fit in with everyone.

I've started to realise that the only way that I can get other people's respect is to have some self respect. It's not been easy, but i'm getting there eventually and it's making me much happier. (And less tired!) Good luck, I hope that things things get better soon for you