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18th January 2018, 13:06
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At the end of my tether
How has my anxiety got so bad again? Three months ago I was going out and about feeling more confident, now I can barely leave the house without an inordinate amount of anxiety Wtf? 
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18th January 2018, 15:05
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18th January 2018, 15:10
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18th January 2018, 15:48
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I feel ugly or uglier today. Think that walk earlier made me feel quite paranoid. I'll wait the day out before venturing forth again
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18th January 2018, 17:56
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I think some of the problem is that I'm not eating enough and my reflux is really bad at the moment which seems to put me in a state of anxiety before I even start to think about anything else
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18th January 2018, 18:11
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tired, brain not functioning at full capacity or even half, or quarter
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18th January 2018, 18:12
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Like a pain in the arse. Hate that my ocd makes me so ****ing exhausting to be around, wish I could resist compulsively seeking reassurance, it gets really pathetic and demanding at times but it's so hard to resist in the moment.
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18th January 2018, 18:15
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Tired and may have the beginnings of a cold
 Still it could be worse, the owner of the animal sanctuary where I volunteer has been in hospital since Sunday with this God Damn flu plus gastroenteritis 
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18th January 2018, 23:41
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^ ^^ ^^^ what's up all?
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19th January 2018, 11:02
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The trick to living with SA is knowing where you are on the roller coaster up down or plateaus and deal with it where you can. When you are on a high, get out and about, forge meaningful relationships, do job interviews / jobs, learn a new skill, learn to drive and take your test, deep clean your home, do something that gently pushes you out of your comfort zone. Recognise when you are on a low, and get the help that is out there, take your medication, go out for a walk every day make your bed, do the washing up, take a shower clean your teeth every day. Rest up for a day or so, don't just stay in your room saying “poor me poor me” then post on the websites “I haven't left my room for three months” like its a badge of honour.
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19th January 2018, 12:24
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Pretty down but actively trying not to actually fall down. Feel grateful for what I have in life and for those I'm fortunate enough to have care for me but my mum keeps subtly putting me down (but she's in pain and clearly just not dealing with it well) which is getting to me. Meanwhile my bff has broken up with her other half who has mental health issues and understandably as part of her coping mechanism is talking about everything that was wrong with him- trouble is, a large part of this is everything that happens to be wrong with him is wrong with me also lol so it's like having to laugh/smile through a punch everytime she hits out at him. It's sort of funny really but the digs are also feeding my insecurity that I can't change. Still I couldn't be without either of them - and the punches that come with them.
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19th January 2018, 12:25
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19th January 2018, 16:44
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Nice one, Oddy
I feel weirdly flustered today. There are things I need to be sorting out, but I can't focus my mind on anything, everything sort of feels like it's unreachable, behind a pane of glass. Trying to resist the temptation to spend the rest of the day lying down, staring at the walls.
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19th January 2018, 23:34
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An emotional wreck.
I stopped my anti-depressants a few days ago because they didn’t seem to be working and my Doctor wants to try me on some different ones. I don’t appear to be suffering any withdrawal symptoms, apart from some slight dizziness, but I do feel a lot more emotional. I completely lost it during Eastenders   (something I wouldn’t have done a few days ago). I absolutely hate the way anti-depressants flatten all of my emotions and turn me into a colder person but I don’t want to go back to the kind of person I used to be who would burst into floods of tears at the drop of a hat  Everything always has to be all or nothing with me. Why can’t I just be a normal stable person?
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19th January 2018, 23:48
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^ I don***8217;t know, but I***8217;m guessing that stopping a particular medication will cause some sort of effect whilst your body adjusts to the changes within. Have you started the new antidepressants yet? I wish I could say something helpful, but all I can think of is for you to accept that your emotions are going to be all over the place whilst you***8217;re changing medication. Try not to see yourself as being any less of a person whilst you***8217;re doing the best that you can to manage your depression.
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20th January 2018, 05:11
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@ Rianne Thank you so much for your support, it’s always very much appreciated
I know you’re right about me needing to give my body time to adjust. I’m expecting to receive the new anti-depressants on Monday but I don’t hold out much hope of them relieving the depression anymore than all the other anti d’s my Psychiatrist has been churning out over the years. As the new medication is relatively new out it’s expensive too and unless I can eventually get it on the NHS (which I really don’t want to do) it’s going to cost a fortune. I’ve spent most of my adult life on various medications (prescribed by the same Psychiatrist) and rather than helping the SA and depression it’s now causing me to feel incredibly ill. I wish I could just stop taking all of my medications for ever but the prospect terrifies me. So sorry for the vent, I’m just at my wits end I guess @ HermanneHesse - I’m so sorry that everything feels so hopeless and pointless for you at the moment I can well imagine that suffering with Psoriasis makes the situation so much worse for you. A relative of mine was diagnosed with Psoriasis but as it hasn't returned since it’s first flare up I’m very much hoping it was a mis-diagnosis as I know how self-conscious it made them feel at the time. Sadly, some people did make (hopefully well meaning) comments about my relatives rash although I can honestly say it didn’t look anywhere near as horrible as they imagined it looked but it’s so easy for me to say that when I wasn't the one who had it. During my extensive research on the condition I do remember reading that exposing your skin to certain types of ultraviolet light can sometimes bring some relief during a flare up. I don’t know if you’ve tried Phototherapy at your hospital? I expect you’ve actually probably tried everything so I’ll shut up! I wish I knew what to say regarding you saying you've never had anyone who loved, cared or respected you. Hearing anyone say that makes me feel awfully sad. If it’s any consolation, even when you do have someone in your life that loves you when you don’t much like yourself you spend most of the time thinking they are totally misguided or deluded for feeling that way so you can’t win. For the small amount it’s worth, you're definitely greatly respected on this forum for your interesting and forthright posts. Not many people here are brave enough to stick their head above the parapet and say what they really think on certain subjects if they feel not everyone will agree and I really respect you for that. I wish I could be more like that! As for many of us here, I do think that your dislike for yourself probably far outweighs any negative feelings that any other person may have had about you. But if we experienced a little more self worth and could see that suffering with mental and/or physical conditions doesn’t turn us into ugly monsters but simply means that we are flawed human beings like everyone else, I guess none of us would be here! Anyhow, sorry for the ramble. Take care HH  Please don’t quote
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