How is everyone feeling? (31)

[Tonkin]

Originally Posted by Indigo_

They did help yeah, I took them for about 16 years and had no side-effects that I can recall

Thanks, that's good to know. I think I might give them a try.

What happened after 16 years if you don't mind me asking?

[Tubbs]

Sad
Been watching my uncle's funeral online. He died of Covid in a care home, a week before they were all due to get the vaccination. 😥

[Veni Vidi Vado]

^^ Sorry to hear that. Tubbs
^^^ Well done , Its always difficult to make that initial breakthrough from a bad place , and hopefully things will only continue to improve from this point

[Percy]

Originally Posted by hellotiger

I’ve been so angry for the past few weeks. Every day I’ve felt like I am suffocating with it. Today I worked through it and I feel better. Not ok yet, as there is still much to do, but I don’t feel as trapped as I did.

Hellotiger's back *bounds around the room like an over excited Tiger*

Originally Posted by Tubbs

Sad
Been watching my uncle's funeral online. He died of Covid in a care home, a week before they were all due to get the vaccination. 😥

Sorry about your uncle tubbs

[Merritt]

I'm sorry for your loss, Tubbs Sorry too that you had to experience the funeral in such a strange and impersonal way.

[limey123]

Originally Posted by Tubbs

Sad
Been watching my uncle's funeral online. He died of Covid in a care home, a week before they were all due to get the vaccination. 😥

Very sorry to hear this, Tubbs. That really sucks. What a poor man, and it's so hard on your family too.

My uncle I'm afraid may be facing a similar fate. He's also in a care home (with dementia) and has had COVID (he had been vaccinated only a week or so before getting the illness). He has beaten it, but is now very weak and we don't know how he'll be, assuming he survives.

I'm so sorry I've not been able to visit him for a year now. He's maybe even forgotten who I am. It's so sad, a life of hard work and devotion and care for others, and you end up in a nursing home full of strangers, and believing your wife and your other family have abandoned you. It's so awful!!

[Percy]

Wah, brooklyn nine nine's coming to an end wah!

[Oddity]

Originally Posted by Tubbs

Sad
Been watching my uncle's funeral online. He died of Covid in a care home, a week before they were all due to get the vaccination. 😥

So sorry for your loss Tubbs

[Chess&Junkfood]

It's nice to see you back on the forum, hellotiger

[Percy]

Originally Posted by Nanuq

I heard that they started filming the new series this week?

The last series *sobs*

Originally Posted by hellotiger

No going away this time, or i'll cry.

[hellotiger]

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I’m feeling kinda vomity. I got stressed out in the supermarket and did that sick in my mouth but swallowed it thing and since my stomach is threatening to do it again
I hate wearing a mask but I have a very expressionful face and it does hide the various emotions going on in my noggin. I don’t know what I would have done if I had been sick though. Just go sick in the mask and walk around with it pretending I hadn’t? De-mask, vomit, carry on hoping not to be recognised?

[Toxic]

I have my CT scan in the morning

I don't know why its starting to bother me - I'm fully aware no one will be there who will be able to make sense of it. It'll be the letter I get 2-3 weeks later asking me to go back in that I'm really bothered about.

Really I need to attemppt to contact my doctors and find out why my neck/jaw is getting progressively more painful but I'm not sure its going to be relevant to my potentially dodgy ticker

One thing at a time...

[Toxic]

^ Thanks

I actually have no idea who my consultant will be

I went private but he bounced me back to the NHS as he didnt think anything that might be going on would be particularly urgent. So who knows who's got me now! I have no names on the appointment..just turn up here for your heart and aorta scan with contrast!

I had that with my last blood test 3-4 years ago - We will get in touch if theres any problems! - they still havent

Thought I'd edit since it was the last post

I'm back from it, I've decided I dislike cannulas, the other person in the room was a student and seemed terrified to clip the dye thing up to my arm, I couldn't understand them very well probably due to masks and right before they started the donut spinning they pulled me back out and put the ECG wires on me too before sticking me back in. The warm feeling from the dye is weird though!

[Tubbs]

Thanks for everyone's kind support a few posts back. X

[Mr. Nobody]

feeling SO much better now that we are actually getting a bit of sun now,
it's light when I'm driving to work, and still light when I'm driving home,

plus,..all the horrible -10c type temperatures are gone too,
I'm slowly beginning to thaw out from the worst of the Winter

long may this continue,

[limey123]

^ I hear ya. I've been working nightshift the last 6 weeks and have seen practically no daylight at all. During this period, my mental health has nosedived. You don't realise always just how important the Sun is until you stop seeing it for long...

[Seagull]

^ Do you ever get post-night shift headaches, Limey, when you wake up from daytime sleep?

[Tembo]

Really struggling to find any motivation at all, especially with going in to work tomorrow.

It is frustrating how there is no way to build on or sustain my progress. My mental health is worsening, and my communication skills are like being my 13 year old self again when at work or when talking to shop staff. Sadly it isn’t like riding a bike, and there is seemingly nothing I can do to improve it, and potentially not for most of this year ahead either. I’m going backwards and it feels scary.

[limey123]

Sad. My uncle died of COVID in a care home last night. I never had the chance to visit him. He was a lovely man, the world is now a worse place.

[anxiouslondoner]

^ sorry for your loss.

[Oddity]

^^ So sorry to hear that

I lost my neighbour last year to covid, such a lovely guy.

[Percy]

Sorry to hear that limey123

[Consolida]

@ limey - I'm so sorry to hear about your uncle


I've been feeling horrendous physically and mentally.

Every bone in my body aches to the point that I am taking painkillers daily. It's pointless going to see the GP because I'm certain they will dismiss my symptoms as being anxiety related and just part and parcel of being a middle aged neurotic woman.

I'm feeling so stressed out about my adoptive mum who has finally started chemotherapy for her terminal cancer and illness and dying is never far from my thoughts. I've started having very bad nightmares.

Also I'm struggling again emotionally after speaking on the phone for the first time with a biological half brother. He suffered a truly horrendous childhood because of our evil birth mother. However, like all of my other birth siblings, he is sociable and gregarious. It's only my life that has been blighted by the dreaded social anxiety which is leaving me with the thought that it must have been nurture rather than nature.

On top of it all, the Pandemic with its lockdowns and lack of social interaction has set me back years. It's a struggle to leave the house.

Apart from that, everything in life is positively hunky dory.

[firemonkey]

That attempting to be social is a waste of time. That a combination of ASD + schizophrenia totally scuppers you on that front.

[Mr. Nobody]

Originally Posted by limey123

Sad. My uncle died of COVID in a care home last night. I never had the chance to visit him. He was a lovely man, the world is now a worse place.

that's horrible,. sad to hear that limey

it is so sad,. the number of our older relatives that are dying of Covid and other causes in care homes up and down the country just now.

my Mum passed away a few months ago and I hadn't been able to visit since last March,

my g/f's uncle just passed away a fortnight ago, he was an amazing old guy,. but hadn't been able to visit him since last April.

it's just the thought of how miserable their last few months had been for them,
plus, the nagging thought of whether the lack of physical support through visiting had any contributing effect on their health.

[limey123]

Thanks, everyone, for your kind wishes.

@Consolida: great to see you, you were missed. But so sorry you're going through hell try tackling one problem at a time, otherwise you will continue to feel overwhelmed? Start with your health as that's most important. Sending you BIG HUGS

@Mr Nobody: very sorry to hear about your mum, and that you hadn't been able to see her ( That's so sad.
Yeah, I think the same, not having seen their loved ones for so long must have been devastating. I'm pretty sure my uncle went to his grave basically feeling abandoned, as he didn't understand the thing with lockdowns. It's such a dreadful thought, I can't bear to think about it.

[Consolida]

@ Nanuq, thank you so much for your kind words x I'm so sorry that you're continuing to have such a tough time due to the virus

@ Limey, thank you for your kind words. I've really missed the lovely folk on here but wish it wasn't only when I'm feeling so utterly miserable that I come here!

@ Mr Nobody, I'm so sorry about your mum
This Pandemic has had such a devastating effect on everyone

[Percy]

Consolida's back *boundds around the room like an over exited thing*

[Moksha]

Weirdly depressed that we're heading out of lockdown. This pandemic has really brought home to me just how odd and disconnected I truly am. I've enjoyed the peace and quiet. I've also loved having an excuse not to socialize or, basically, do anything. The thought of roads clogged with traffic, and all the noise and greed and chaos of life starting up again, plus the summer heat...ugghh. People can't wait to get back to pubs and parties and open plan offices and busy shopping centres, etc. I don't feel that way at all. I haven't missed anything. I'm sure I have some kind of depressive/avoidant personality. And I'm sure I was born this way. I don't think I've ever liked being alive much.

[Merritt]

I'm sorry for your loss, Limey & Mr. Nobody And sorry for everyone who's struggling at the moment.

Finding some of the glee I'm seeing around on Twitter and the like about everywhere opening up again in the not-too-distant future a bit painful. I totally get that it's a good thing, and no one's in the wrong for being happy about it, but it reminds me that I genuinely have nothing to look forward to. There's nothing good in my future, just a sort of endless personal lockdown experience.