How is everyone feeling? (28)

[Kevin Hodge]

Originally Posted by BFG

Could have been worse at least only a bit of softwood and not oak.

sometimes its just luck, you can get caught really bad or get off relatively lightly.


you see some terrifying nutshots in the UFC, saw one recently where the guy was writhing, coughing and retching Dx

[Progress]

For everyone having a rough time.

Next week could be a huge turning point in my life for the better. It better be because I'm really struggling with depression at the moment. I hate getting my hopes up because I've had a few disappointments lately - it kind of makes me emotionally a bit numb, and difficult to get excited about anything. Whatever happens I think things are going to be different in some way.

[anxiouslondoner]

Originally Posted by biscuits

I feel like a fidiot. As a result of being avoidant and silly, I seem to have lost a good friend.

If they are truely a good friend, you won't have done, unless it's something a lot worse than avoidance and silliness would suggest.

[Olly.]

Originally Posted by Amatus

I feel awful. I've just been informed mother isn't keeping the family dog anymore, after she promised she would (for probably the 4th time). I'm devastated, she was my puppy and now she's going.

I can understand why, we're all moving out and on, and her life is pretty chaotic at the moment, but I feel so let down. She always makes promises that deep down, I know she'll never keep. She's never been consistent.

It may seem silly, but I feel like I'm losing a friend.

Can you not take her/him with you when you move out? I don't know what its like to be close to a pet like that, but I do know most people consider dogs as part of the family and like friends, so that doesn't sound silly to me

[Olly.]

Originally Posted by Ryan_

Crap. My Mum (I moved in with her a couple of months ago) has just semi-angrily come out with a load of pent-up stuff about how my plans and me being in the house all the time has interrupted and adversely affected her life and that I need to sort it out, basically. So now I feel massively guilty for having to live here, and for my life situation.

Moving out and away from my family - who I love but do not particularly like - has just become necessary, not just my desire.

You shouldn't be feeling like that or feeling guilty because of that, sounds to me like she might be just taking her own issues out on you and I'm sure she doesn't really feel that way about you staying there

Originally Posted by WiIIow

So sorry to hear that Amatus, its not silly at all, dogs are great companions so it makes sense that your dog feels like a friend. I hope you find a way around it for your sake and your dogs.


I just feel completely hopeless. Realising more and more how much I've wasted my life. I know that nobody else can change things for me but I feel completely powerless. I don't see a way out of the crap existence I've got myself into

Me neither I know it would be stupid to give up at such a young age, but I really really want out of this miserable, pathetic excuse for a life I have right now, I hate myself to the extreme, and everything seems so utterly hopeless, think I might have to talk to my counsellor about meds at this rate

[Progress]

Originally Posted by Ryan_

Crap. My Mum (I moved in with her a couple of months ago) has just semi-angrily come out with a load of pent-up stuff about how my plans and me being in the house all the time has interrupted and adversely affected her life and that I need to sort it out, basically. So now I feel massively guilty for having to live here, and for my life situation.

Moving out and away from my family - who I love but do not particularly like - has just become necessary, not just my desire.

Originally Posted by Olly.

You shouldn't be feeling like that or feeling guilty because of that, sounds to me like she might be just taking her own issues out on you and I'm sure she doesn't really feel that way about you staying there

Yes, isn't there some sort of compromise. I think she ought to help you out while you're not working.

[Sunshine Recorder]

Originally Posted by Olly.

I know it would be stupid to give up at such a young age, but I really really want out of this miserable, pathetic excuse for a life I have right now, I hate myself to the extreme, and everything seems so utterly hopeless, think I might have to talk to my counsellor about meds at this rate

I hope this feeling doesn't stick around for too long.

It's not an easy thing, this whole finding a job lark. It seems like you have to decide your destiny while you're still a kid! Otherwise, you'll be too old to change your career.

[Olly.]

Originally Posted by Entity

I hope this feeling doesn't stick around for too long.

It's not an easy thing, this whole finding a job lark. It seems like you have to decide your destiny while you're still a kid! Otherwise, you'll be too old to change your career.

Thanks, Entity

Good luck in your jobsearch

[Olly.]

Originally Posted by WiIIow

I'm sorry you're feeling that way too Olly I hope things get better for you soon.

You too

[Mental Elf]

I've gone mental or something wtf is wrong with me lately. *slaps self snap out of it Ozzy*

[Silver]

Wishing there was a cure or pill I could take to cure chronic loneliness and emptiness as nothing else works :-(

[Sunshine Recorder]

^ I'm fine with being alone, but everyone needs some form of human interaction, so I can feel your pain.
I just don't seem to be able to keep people close these days.

[Merritt]

So isolated and alone that I feel like I could disappear entirely. But with no motivation to fight it, because people = pain in the brain.

[Concept]

I feel better, but I'm still a mess.

Sorry that you're feeling so low, Willow.

[I Love My Cats]

for everyone finding it tough at the moment.

Originally Posted by WiIIow

Woke up this morning and just cried. I can't cope with feeling like this anymore. I've got 2 social things over the next 2 weekends that I just can't face. I'm ashamed of who I am and what I've become. I don't know how I'm going to get through work today

Hope work goes better than you expect. Last week, I ended up in a bad place with work, family stuff and exam pressures and struggled to get through it. A colleague bought me a card with a 'one day at a time' inscription on it. Here's one for you

Originally Posted by Concept

I feel better, but I'm still a mess.

Glad you're a bit better, Concept. Hope it continues

I'm getting worried that my concentration is poor and I haven't done as much studying as I'd planned to do. I'm also in the middle of a stand-off as the cats hate the new food I've bought and are holding out for something else. They're sitting looking pitiful and disappointed in me. I am going to cave in and buy some more when Pets at Home opens at 9am

[Z.]

Hmmmm, not sure how I'm feeling really. Went to the GP this morning for the first time and got issued Citalopram and need to get a blood test. I went in primarily for OCD, but he didn't seem to take me very seriously. I told him how it interfered with my life, and said that we all have little quirks, but that doesn't indicate a pathology. I told him how it wasn't just a 'quirk' but didn't seem to be listening. He said that we all aren't perfect and that if we were we would all 'be Prime Mininster.' He also asked me if I washed my hands a lot. I told him I didn't, and that wasn't one of the symptoms of it, so I think he had this stereotypical view of OCD. Damn. Just a question: do you need to have any knowledge regarding mental health to be a GP today? He definitely didn't.
At least he gave me medication but only after I pressed him. Have any of you had bad experiences with GP's, and if so, what did you do?

[Jason90]

^^ A good doctor who actually listens and takes you seriously not to mention actually knows what their on about is a hard thing to find. I'm lucky in that we have one doctor like that here, he knows what hes talking about and he doesn't muck about wasting time like the rest. I had a bad experience with one who made me feel like shit even worse was she looked younger than me and seemed like she had absolutely no clue what she was doing, it came across like shed just become a doctor for the money and couldn't care less about the patients shes treating. My dad also agreed with me when he went to see her for a long term knee problem and she proved useless prescribing pain killers rather than any actual resolution, he saw the good doctor and he got booked in for key hole surgery straight away which sorted the problem. Hope you manage to find a decent doctor yourself.


I'm angry at myself i was knackered last night and ready to fall asleep but instead a program on tv interested me so i carried on watching it, that ability to nod off came and went and i barely slept at all so i'm still knackered and i'm a bit anxious about my voluntary work later its my 2nd time there and i've forgotten everyone's names along with the door code so that's gonna be embarrassing.

[Z.]

Originally Posted by Mark09

Today or tomorrow when I'm on my PC I'll try and link you to a good site about OCD.

I use OCD UK a lot which is probably the best website out there. Citalopram is actually listed as a recommended medication on there which is great.

Originally Posted by Jason90

^^ A good doctor who actually listens and takes you seriously not to mention actually knows what their on about is a hard thing to find. I'm lucky in that we have one doctor like that here, he knows what hes talking about and he doesn't muck about wasting time like the rest. I had a bad experience with one who made me feel like shit even worse was she looked younger than me and seemed like she had absolutely no clue what she was doing, it came across like shed just become a doctor for the money and couldn't care less about the patients shes treating. My dad also agreed with me when he went to see her for a long term knee problem and she proved useless prescribing pain killers rather than any actual resolution, he saw the good doctor and he got booked in for key hole surgery straight away which sorted the problem. Hope you manage to find a decent doctor yourself

Yeah to say he's a doctor he had absolutely no idea what I was talking about, and didn't even seem interested in what I was saying. To be honest, he has a terrible reputation, but I chose him specifically because on the website one of his 'interests' was psychiatry, so I thought I should go with him. I'll definitely be changing doctors though so hopefully that will make a difference. Incompetent doctors shouldn't put me off, especially when they make you feel worse, but there are good doctors like you said, so I'll try and get with one.
One thing that really bothered me was that he seemed to have this stereotypical view of OCD. He asked me how often I wash my hands, and I told him that my obsessions don't involve germs, so there was no need to wash my hands. It's a myth that that's all OCD is; that's only the case in a minority of obsessive-compulsives but he wasn't having any of it.

[Tom Morello]

I know all about useless doctors/GPs. I've seen multiple ones in the last year and many haven't had a clue and at times even dismissed my problems, bordering on accusing me of trying to waste their time. I've ranted about them a few times on here. I understand they can't be specialists on every area but to talk to me in a patronising tone like I'm some idiot isn't right.

[Z.]

Originally Posted by Samba.

I know all about useless doctors/GPs. I've seen multiple ones in the last year and many haven't had a clue and at times even dismissed my problems, bordering on accusing me of trying to waste their time. I've ranted about them a few times on here. I understand they can't be specialists on every area but to talk to me in a patronising tone like I'm some idiot isn't right.

Was this about mental health? Have you found one that dealt with your problem well? It can be even worse with SA seeking treatment, especially when they're patronising like you said.

[Tom Morello]

Not specifically mental health but I've found that ever since I've been using mental health services (on their records) every other problem I have somehow gets linked to my mental health. I could go there and say I have a dodgy knee and they'd start asking about my depression etc.

I have found some helpful but not that many. Probably less than half the ones I've seen have been helpful.

[goldenjuniper]

Stressed with work got to make some phone calls and deal with humans can't wait to get out of here today. Why can't I just play with bits of wood instead, I can deal with that part just fine.

[goldenjuniper]

Originally Posted by BFG

Stressed with work got to make some phone calls and deal with humans can't wait to get out of here today. Why can't I just play with bits of wood instead, I can deal with that part just fine.

What a drama queen, man up and grow a pair

[Silver]

Feeling very hopeless today at work and cant stop crying so think Im going to leave soon. Only one person here seems to care and I told her how I was feeling and she offered to chat but I couldn't bare the idea of crying in front of her so declined. Lost count how many times Ive cried at work either at the desk or in the toilets in the last few years. People don't seem to notice or care and you just feel like everyone is so engulfed in their own lives that no one has time for you. Feel engulfed in a black haze of negativity and hopeless. Feel so damn lonely. Even looked at the dignitas website in Switzerland last night (out of sheer curiosity more than anything else). On the plus side I am hoping to get a docs apt soon and also have an apt booked with relate even if it did cost me £40!!

I hope everyone else is ok

[Z.]

Originally Posted by WiIIow

Sorry you had a bad time at the doctors JzMunch. I've had bad experiences with doctors so I felt really apprehensive when I went to see my current one, especially since he had a reputation for not being very nice! But hes been great, really supportive and understanding about mental health issues. If you're not getting the right help you should try another doctor. You might need several appointments to get your treatment right so its important that you have a doctor you're comfortable with.

Thanks for the support WiIIow. He told me to wait two weeks for another appointment but I think it's best to go next week with another doctor instead and hope that he's a lot better. I just really need them to understand what's wrong with me as I desperately need the help. The Citalopram he issued wasn't even for OCD. It was for the depression I told him about and he just dismissed the OCD really.

[Pablo Huntsbach]

Rather good, if a bit tired. I have 3 more shifts at this factory, then I'm giving myself the rest of the week off, then I start a new permanent job which should in theory be the best job I've ever had. Still only minimum wage but it seems easy and seems like a more respectful environment than Sainsburys ever was.

[I Love My Cats]

Originally Posted by Silver

Feeling very hopeless today at work and cant stop crying so think Im going to leave soon. Only one person here seems to care and I told her how I was feeling and she offered to chat but I couldn't bare the idea of crying in front of her so declined. Lost count how many times Ive cried at work either at the desk or in the toilets in the last few years. People don't seem to notice or care and you just feel like everyone is so engulfed in their own lives that no one has time for you. Feel engulfed in a black haze of negativity and hopeless. Feel so damn lonely. Even looked at the dignitas website in Switzerland last night (out of sheer curiosity more than anything else). On the plus side I am hoping to get a docs apt soon and also have an apt booked with relate even if it did cost me £40!!

I hope everyone else is ok

Sorry to hear it's been a crappy day, Silver Last Friday was exactly the same for me and I got all upset and panicky and tearful. It culminated in a colleague giving me a wee card saying "one day at a time" to try to get me to be a bit easier on myself, and that was enough to get the floodgates opening and I couldn't stop crying.

Don't forget that one colleague DID ask how you were feeling and offered to be there for you, but you turned that down to save your tears for a more private time. Even if the rest are caught up in their own stuff, it sounds like that colleague is kind and thoughtful, and is looking out for you. That's worth its weight in gold, and it sounds like she's definitely a 'keeper' in the good colleague stakes

Hope you get a chance to switch off a bit over the weekend and that you feel better soon.

Originally Posted by Pablo Huntsbach

Rather good, if a bit tired. I have 3 more shifts at this factory, then I'm giving myself the rest of the week off, then I start a new permanent job which should in theory be the best job I've ever had. Still only minimum wage but it seems easy and seems like a more respectful environment than Sainsburys ever was.

Nice one Hope the new place is everything you're looking for.

Originally Posted by Jz Munch

Thanks for the support WiIIow. He told me to wait two weeks for another appointment but I think it's best to go next week with another doctor instead and hope that he's a lot better. I just really need them to understand what's wrong with me as I desperately need the help. The Citalopram he issued wasn't even for OCD. It was for the depression I told him about and he just dismissed the OCD really.

Sorry that you had a crappy appointment, Jz. I might be wrong, but citalopram can impact well on both anxiety and depression. As much of the obsessive compulsive stuff is driven by anxiety, your GP may be thinking that it will tackle the underlying anxiety as well as making things look a bit brighter for you. That said, it sounds like he really didn't listen to you and made you feel quite devalued, which is pretty rubbish. I often think that GPs are on another planet, in addition to having short timescales to get one patient out and the next one in He probably asked you to wait for 2 weeks to give the citalopram a bit of time to kick in, although it can take a few months to start seeing any benefits. If you feel you need to speak to another GP to straighten out why Citalopram was prescribed, you might be best to get an appointment next week, if only to put your mind at rest.

[Jason90]

Originally Posted by Silver

Feeling very hopeless today at work and cant stop crying so think Im going to leave soon. Only one person here seems to care and I told her how I was feeling and she offered to chat but I couldn't bare the idea of crying in front of her so declined. Lost count how many times Ive cried at work either at the desk or in the toilets in the last few years. People don't seem to notice or care and you just feel like everyone is so engulfed in their own lives that no one has time for you. Feel engulfed in a black haze of negativity and hopeless. Feel so damn lonely. Even looked at the dignitas website in Switzerland last night (out of sheer curiosity more than anything else). On the plus side I am hoping to get a docs apt soon and also have an apt booked with relate even if it did cost me £40!!

I hope everyone else is ok

That's horrible Silver, I cant believe nobody would care if someone was crying aside from that one woman, I know how soul crippling the loneliness can be as im sure a lot of forum members are. I can understand why you might want to leave but id make sure you get another job to walk into or you could end up with a whole new set of anxieties. For what its worth from what i've read i don't think anyone can fault you for trying to be sociable doing meetups etc and I hope the doctors appointment goes well for you and you feel better soon .


I feel even more tired than earlier and rather deflated with the usual flood of thoughts that come from me being depressed due to tiredness, being worthless etc but im sure if i can sleep alright tonight ill be ok by tomorrow.

[BodyDouble]

@Silver No way I know exactly how you feel, the older I get the more I learn how little people really care in this world about other people even if they like to make out they do. When it comes to it they just care about themselves and avoid anything that is going to upset their life. I looked at Dignitas the other day too! ((((Hugs))))

[northstar]

Bit nervous as I was at a recording of Alan Carr the other night and it's on tonight, and I might end up on screen as the camera kept flying past the audience! I will be listening out for my random guffaws and whoops though