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As a kid were you "punished" for your anxiety ?
I had terrible trouble with anxiety & depression, especially at secondary school, so much so I stopped going.
The authorities knew about my troubles, their solution to try and put me in a residential assessment centre, the same place they were putting criminal and violent kids. Their mindset was this would "toughen me up", they even said that. It shows how primitive their understanding was. Thankfully my mum & dad fought to keep me out, but it was very close. Throughout my school days I felt like I was being punished like this, it was only the worst of a long list. I even considered suing the education and social services for ignoring and aggravating my condition through their heavy handed actions, don't know how feasible that would have been. My counsellor has said I need to put these thoughts and bitterness behind me, I really don't know I can do that, it's a big part of my life. Did you feel you were being punished for being different ? |
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I was told off for being shy/not saying anything e.g greeting people.
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I feel quite bitter too about a lot of things that happened to me during my childhood. All through school I was told off by stupid teachers who thought by humiliating me in front of everyone I would somehow get more confidence. Even my parents used to get annoyed at me when I didn't greet or thank people because I was too shy. I just wish there was more awareness about SA, then I think things could have been a lot different.
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I'd say yes, I was punished for my anxiety, but others would have seen it differently. My problems were never recognised, neither by my family, my then GP, my school, as well as a psychiatrist I went to. At school I was punished for my anxiety driven avoidance. I was then punished at home for my problems with school. I was hospitalised in the end but my avoidance was so extreme that I would not stay, and as they wouldn't section me I walked. I was then in trouble with my parents over that too. Much of the trouble I got into was due to anxiety and avoidance. So as people didn't have a clue what was wrong with me, I'd be punished for things whilst the root cause went unchecked.
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Bitterness, though. What purpose does it serve us? Is it useful? Does it help us? To me it seems that holding on to it is more damaging than letting it go. |
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As a child i was always told i was stupid, dumb or useless which didnt help me much. I felt like an alien around others which made me more withdrawn an negative. No wonder my SA got worse.
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Not for SA but I was punished for being an unruly child who was off the rails, instead of them realising that I actually suffered from various chemical imbalances.
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I was always getting told off, for not saying anything people thought I was doing on purpose I was called rude ignorant and all the rest of it, I would never put my hand up in class if I was stuck either so I'd sit there doing nothing all lesson rather than ask the teacher for help, I wouldn't get up and walk across the room to get a rubber or whatever. So I got into a bit of trouble for that. Being yelled at only exacerbated things.
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I was constantly told off by my parents for not saying hello to people.
I was in trouble at school from time to time if I wouldn't speak to a teacher. When I was in year 3, we had a supply teacher, and I'll never forget her humiliating me because I just couldn't bring myself to say my name. I had to go sit in the back of the room, because that's where 'naughty girls must sit.' I had to sit back there on my own for days. My problems weren't recognised until I was out of school; I think that's true of loads of people here. Now I get called rude, cold and/or unfriendly because I don't (or can't, I suppose) chat to people I don't know. Sometimes I think I still am being punished for my anxiety. I have no friends, no partner and no hope of friends or a partner. I can barely get through a department meeting. It's so hard to explain to someone that I'm actually a very nice lady-- I just can't talk to you. |
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My parents told me I was using it as an excuse so not to bother to talk to people or be sociable. From other family members I've been called weird, rude, anti-social or attention seeking. Naturally I had a happy childhood. I was lucky in other senses in that most of my teachers sympathised with me.
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Yes. By a parent mostly. Especially when I was a teenager and illness became worse, I was very alone in trying to cope. I've talked that to death in therapy and I understand the whys and such, used to be massively angry about it, now I find it sad more than anything. The anger I do have I've had to learn to deal with in a more constructive way because I'm living back at home now, memories very vivid at times and it's hard to jolt myself back into the present but that's the way of things. It was all anger and ignorance then, nightmare of a time.
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Have things gotten better for you since you left school? (I hope so.) |
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Just before my 16th birthday they used the children panel (a very bias system where the child isn't even allowed legal council) to make an order that I would be supervised until my 18th birthday. After 16 I didn't have to go to school of course but we had visits from social work and the threat of being placed in the assessment centre hung over me for two more years. Only when I was 18 I was free from them, but the damage was long done. I was a mess and a virtual recluse, the world was a place full of people judging and punishing me, what other evidence did I have that it wasn't ? Now almost 40 i'm still a mess. Suspicious of people and their motives, especially social services, unfortunately in my work i come into contact with them all the time. Still a bunch of idiots, it's a struggle to find one who isn't as thick as pig shit. |
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An example of the fucked up panel system which is lauded by the sycophantic and uninformed worldwide. |
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Do you really think society would be better off if it were filled with nothing but conformist boot-licking sycophants? |
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i can even think of peers who have problems like anxiety or learning difficulties themselves but try and suppress deny themselves as they are aware of the stigma of individuality (so to speak). |
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