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13th November 2017, 14:18
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Hi all
Hi all, newbie here and also newbie in that I’ve just realised my social anxiety is a thing!
I’m 52, widowed and live in the north east of England. I’ve been on my own a few years now. Since my husband’s death I’ve suffered from depression but I was still confident going out and even went on holiday abroad on my own. It’s only recently after a couple of disastrous relationships that I’ve found myself reluctant to socialise and although I do make plans to go out I bottle out every time. It came to a head last year at my son’s wedding, although I was surrounded by family and friends I’ve never felt so lonely or isolated in my life and made my excuses and left as soon as I could. I don’t want to be lonely or be this person but I just remember how I felt in that room among the people I should feel most comfortable with and I just can’t put myself in that position again. I still go outside to the supermarket and I got a dog so that I’d have to go out to exercise him but given a choice I’d stay in the house or my garden, my haven my safe place. I even tried volunteering this summer; I was part of a team but still felt alone, I had to force myself to go and although It was interesting I couldn’t handle the social side after the event and couldn’t wait to get back home. At this point I’m not sure if I’ll return next year, I tell myself at least I tried. 
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Hi! Hoping you will find this place helpful. I know that I have!