The Suicide Thread - Trigger Warning - Page 58

Mellie · #**1711** 5th September 2023, 23:42

Im hardly on here these days surprised anyone remembers me lol but thanks

Percy · #**1712** 6th September 2023, 00:16

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Originally Posted by Mellie

Im hardly on here these days surprised anyone remembers me lol but thanks

Of course we remember you.

Amara 94 · #**1713** 6th September 2023, 09:31

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Originally Posted by gregarious_introvert

^ Doesn't sound like a friend to me. There are many people who care about you, Mellie - a lot of them (including me) are right here on this forum.

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I agree. They don’t sound like a friend to me especially if they are like this a lot.

Off topic, but this is a recent thought I’ve had. We say that it’s very bad to be overly proud and arrogant but from experience I’ve found that in fact being overly proud and arrogant is acceptable when it is towards a person despised by society or seen as lower status. I’ve gotten the silent treatment or cold shoulder quite a few times from some people in a society that is ready to point out arrogance and narcissism as bad. But behaviours to try and undermine another person are kind of arrogant or narcissistic imo, I may be wrong.

Mellie · #**1714** 6th September 2023, 13:53

I think i misread the email he sent easily done i know my friends care. Although cant help being paranoid that i cant have conversations with people and they r needing space from me

Mellie · #**1715** 6th September 2023, 21:39

People r so unbelieveably cruel

gregarious_introvert · #**1716** 6th September 2023, 22:39

^ Sometimes, yes, but most of the time, believe it or not, they don't mean to be; they have their own agendas and often don't realise the impact they have on others. I'm sure that, if they knew how bad you're feeling right now, they'd want to make you feel better.

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Percy · #**1717** 7th September 2023, 01:55

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Originally Posted by Mellie

People r so unbelieveably cruel

Some can be, yes.

Mellie · #**1718** 7th September 2023, 08:48

I meant some people not all are. Yea suppose so greg

Sunrise · #**1719** 20th September 2023, 20:47

I'm feeling very paranoid and I don't feel safe at all anywhere. I want somewhere I can escape too.

Laurel · #**1720** 21st September 2023, 07:41

Hire caravan for a week, some deals about. But then you’d be too much on yourself maybe. Pop over your parents?

biscuits · #**1721** 21st September 2023, 18:37

^^

Merry · #**1722** 21st September 2023, 20:34

That's a horrible way to be feeling, Sunrise

Do you have any holidays due? Maybe getting away somewhere new would help?

Chess&Junkfood · #**1723** 21st September 2023, 21:08

I'm sorry to hear that, Sunrise. I would reach out for support when you need to. And take one day at a time. Sending the best your way!

Dougella · #**1724** 24th September 2023, 23:06

^ I don't think you can really know that

Chess&Junkfood · #**1725** 24th September 2023, 23:34

I try to take one day at a time, TD, P. Especially when we can be our own worst enemy. Where instead we need to be kind to ourselves. I also want to add that I think you're great!

Merritt · #**1726** 25th September 2023, 01:45

I often find myself thinking that way too, TDP. It's what my mind seems to default to when I can't keep myself distracted with trivial entertainment. Wish I had some wisdom to share.

As Chess&Junkfood says, try to take it one day at a time. I know it's hard not to look at the big picture and be overwhelmed, but if you feel able try to put those thoughts to one side until you've watched another film, spent some time with another book, had a gaming session... anything, really. You honestly don't have to deal with those thoughts right now, as much as they may insist.

Consolida · #**1727** 25th September 2023, 08:21

Stick around TD,P, you never know what's around the corner. As Chess and Merritt said, try to take just one day at a time and distract yourself with the things that bring you a little enjoyment

Mellie · #**1728** 29th September 2023, 18:18

Im done

biscuits · #**1729** 29th September 2023, 18:53

Hope you're okay TD,P

Mellie

has anything happened?

Mellie · #**1730** 29th September 2023, 18:55

Yes

Mellie · #**1731** 29th September 2023, 19:00

Its not fixable. I know everyones lying to me and my life is just a mess.

biscuits · #**1732** 29th September 2023, 19:27

Is there anyone who you can trust or feel safe with?

Do you have a CPN or support worker?

Percy · #**1733** 29th September 2023, 20:20

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Originally Posted by Mellie

Its not fixable. I know everyones lying to me and my life is just a mess.

It'll get better Mellie.

Chess&Junkfood · #**1734** 29th September 2023, 20:41

I'm sorry to hear this Mellie. I would reach out for support. And take one day at a time.

Mellie · #**1735** 29th September 2023, 20:41

No it owont i dont know where i am i cant go bk to where i live

Mellie · #**1736** 29th September 2023, 20:42

Even my own family hate me

Mellie · #**1737** 29th September 2023, 20:45

Everyone i know hates me secretely

Mellie · #**1738** 29th September 2023, 21:38

The worlds full of hate

Merry · #**1739** 29th September 2023, 21:48

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Originally Posted by Mellie

Everyone i know hates me secretely

I don't know you in person but what I do know, I definitely don't hate

Sea · #**1740** 29th September 2023, 23:14

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Originally Posted by Mellie

The worlds full of hate

That's true, sadly.
But raw wounds do heal with time, so hang on in there and it will get more bearable