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[10203040]

my college tutor has got a meeting with my mum tomorrow and he is going to tell my mum that ive got really bad anxiety which is making my time at college a misery and is disrupting my work and concentration in classes.

Happy that my tutor is telling my mum because i know if my tutor didn't do it my mum would never know about it and i would just keep struggling, the thing which is freaking me out is that my tutor said that i have to be there when he tells my mum, have no idea how shes going to react...sooooo worried.

[Hope30]

Hey welcome back. I used to feel the same at college, found it difficult to stay focused in class too. I think you'll probably feel much better once your mum knows cause one of the hardest things with sa is trying to keep how you really feel hidden, especially from people you're close to. You sound like you've got a really good tutor though who can hopefully explain it to her and give you some support.

[10203040]

yes he is great,he directed me to the childline page where i can get free online couselling

[Bambos]

Welcome back I hope things go well tomorrow, as Hope said it sounds like you've got a really great tutor.

[10203040]

The meeting was really scary but my tutor told my mum so i didn't have to speak much i just backed up what he was saying,my tutor said that he is worried about me and has persuaded me to get counselling which he is going to sort out for me,my mums reaction was like i expected,she said you should've told me but she doesn't understand how hard i find talking to people about my anxiety.

a step forward into the right direction

[Hope30]

I'm glad it went well for you! Even if you're mum doesn't understand yet at least she's now aware of it. Like you said definitely a step in the right direction!

[10203040]

Been told today that i have my first counselling session on wednesday, never ever had one before,i am very worried about it

[10203040]

I'm really struggling today,my anxiety is at its highest its been in ages,found it hard to even walk into college this morning,I just want to go home but I cant,I'm at college till 4 today,don't know how to cope today

[Hope30]

I hope your day ended up being ok. I used to feel the same when I was at college. Looking back now all the things I used to worry about never really happened and if something did push me outside my small comfort zone it wasn't that bad. But I know at the time when you're going through it it's hard to see it in that way. I wish I had went to counselling then just for that extra support. I hope you're session on Wednesday goes well, I'm sure it will though!

[Hythlodaeus]

Originally Posted by 10203040

The meeting was really scary but my tutor told my mum so i didn't have to speak much i just backed up what he was saying,my tutor said that he is worried about me and has persuaded me to get counselling which he is going to sort out for me,my mums reaction was like i expected,she said you should've told me but she doesn't understand how hard i find talking to people about my anxiety.

a step forward into the right direction

That's good. You have a nice tutor. I had a supervisor who didn't question my mental health in FOUR years even though during that time I became quieter, more isolated, unhappy and neglected my personal appearance more and more - didn't wash or tidy my hair or clothes. I think he let me down. He was naturally more reserved than his colleagues. I don't know whether that means he should have helped me more or less.

[10203040]

Ive got my first counselling session tomorrow,freaking out about it

[10203040]

Had my first counselling session today,it went quite well,been told to just goals for myself,I have to talk to at least 4 people ive never spoken to before next week

[10203040]

i didnt feel comfortable with the counsellor i had,she kept talking over me,i dont think she understands at all what im going through,i dont know what to do...anyone got any advice?