Type what you're thinking about right now (11)

[Clumsy*]

It's a bit late, brain. Go to sleep please.

[Ronnie_Pickering]

the most exciting news of the day:
https://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/202...itish-classic/
Doctor Who is getting a Disney rendition.

[I Love My Cats]

How to stop thinking and give myself and my brain a rest.

[Professor Willow]

I have more tools in my anxiety toolbox now than I have ever had in my life, so why do I find myself being completely overwhelmed by anxiety and despair?

[cymruambyth26]

The Barry Island Fireworks display is tonight instead of next Saturday. It's weird that it's a week early.

I was looking to go to a fireworks display next Saturday (on the actual day). This change is throwing me a little.

It's interesting that even with an anxiety disorder, I enjoy watching fireworks. I think because mentally I do the ground work and mentally prepare myself for fireworks and that they are going to be loud, which then means that I can still experience them.

[cymruambyth26]

It's raining heavy where I am... that's good...it means we might be able to keep more sweets for ourselves tonight

[biscuits]

^^ That's good that you're able to prepare yourself for fireworks. I've always hated fireworks and balloons popping! I used to go to Bonfire night with friends and... oh, my heart! It made me so jumpy! Sparklers terrified me too! Couldn't wait to get home!

[biscuits]

Originally Posted by I Love My Cats

How to stop thinking and give myself and my brain a rest.

same! I'm finding listening to podcasts helps for a little bit because I concentrate.

[Ronnie_Pickering]

it's always funny when you get a response or a 'like' from a celebrity on Twitter.

[Clumsy*]

Did you get a like from Elon?

[Ronnie_Pickering]

Originally Posted by Clumsy*

Did you get a like from Elon?

ha everyone is tweeting to him at the moment.

[magnolia]

All my life I've had to put up with men and their tempers .
My dad.
An ex boyfriend.
My current boyfriend. Although he never gets angry at me. Gets angry with himself but I still have to encounter it.

So fed up of it.
Everytime I feel upset I bottle it up
Everytime.

[biscuits]

^ It might be worth discussing it with him (obviously when calm). It could be that he hasn't realised the affect it's having on you when he displays his anger in certain ways. Taking the time to share that might make a difference e.g. he could take himself off somewhere to be angry in private so you're out of earshot.

[Messer]

How unfair life is. And how when you have children life being unfair to them is a million times more hurtful than you ever knew it could be.

[Jen.]

The "Christmas is getting earlier every year!" routine is tiresome, but... this morning I walked past a Caffe Nero and in the window it had a fully decorated and lit-up Christmas tree

I can't remember when places usually start doing that, but it looks so weird since it's literally the only one and it must have been there since at least yesterday.

[Professor Willow]

Is changing my medication a good idea?

[Consolida]

^ It might be if the medication you are currently taking isn't helping you anymore.

Originally Posted by Messer

How unfair life is. And how when you have children life being unfair to them is a million times more hurtful than you ever knew it could be.

Absolutely. There's no other hurt like it

[Indigo_]

Originally Posted by Messer

How unfair life is. And how when you have children life being unfair to them is a million times more hurtful than you ever knew it could be.

Agreed. My daughter was recently in Intensive Care in Alder Hey on a ventilator. At one point I was pretty sure she wasn't going to make it. Thankfully we're back home now but she has a diagnosis that is life-long.

[Amara 94]

How YouTubes new ui suits modern phones as they have small bezels and usually rounded edges but it looks bad on tv because of how tv’s have squared off borders. The rounded rectangle signage just looks off on a tv.

[humphrey]

Indigo, it is scary when you see someone in intensive care, all the tubes etc. I've been through it a couple of times with my parents, you feel so helpless.

[Mike.Kzov]

^ Yes, it's awful. Intensive care nurses have my admiration.

[Consolida]

@ Indigo - I'm so sorry to hear that your daughter has been ill and can only imagine how frightening it is to see the most precious person in your life on a ventilator. I'm really glad she is back home with you now x


I'm thinking about my afternoon having to visit the hospital for a blood test. As I've been struggling to leave the house on my own recently my husband took some time off work to go with me. On the way we are driving a long the A road (speed limit 50 but we were doing 55) and some maniac in a van comes racing up behind us and starts continuously sounding his horn. This went on for a minute or so until it was safe for us to pull out of his way. As he sped pass the *insert appropriate word* stuck up his middle finger.

I know I shouldn't let things like that effect me but I arrived at the hospital feeling hot and bothered. Also, the last time I had walked through the same hospital doors I had been pushing my mum in her wheelchair to take her for chemotherapy. Just an appointment for a routine blood test but I wish I hadn't bothered because I drove home feeling a lot sadder and fed up with the world than when I started out.

[Amara 94]

How to bulid boundaries. I am following this method of healing CPTSD by a youtuber called the Crappy Childhood Fairy. I am trying to do the Daily Practice. Where I write out my resentments and fears and then meditate for 20 minutes twice a day. It seems hard to do, not hard to do but hard to find the time to do it properly with full time work.

I feel like it might actually be useful for me, but like anything that takes that amount of commitment, it comes with guilt of feeling the need to do it if someone can just walk into your room whilst doing it. Even home workout feel selfish like this. But then it is like if I want good stuff for myself I have to kind of be selfish. Not really but I need to start building boundaries, such as having a time where no one is allowed to interrupt me.

This is because, my mum, who is in a mental hostel, came whilst I was meditating and asked me to help with something. So I feel like I can't properly do what I planned to do as I would have to go work later, the daily practice. I feel like my mum doesn't listen to me but at the same time feel selfish or overly serious for taking such thing seriously but at the same time am starting to feel that if I actually want something I need to start building my boundaries. Find better places or ways to practice something daily such as the practice or even workouts. I'm thinking it might even result to having to move out. But then that seems hard.

I can help my my mum better with boundaries as that would mean I can take the stuff I feel deeply about more seriously without feeling guilt.

I feel like I am overly serious now but feel a bit irritated that this morning didn't go as I was planning it to. But I think if I am serious about this I need to make a life that accommodates such things.

[Consolida]

I'm thinking about how I can never ever say 'NO' to anyone...

In the Summer I had in my mind that I would place my mum's garden bench into my garden and how pretty it would look, but hadn't yet got round to it. Then today my mum's neighbour approached me and asked if they could have the bench 'for sentimental reasons' as they remember seeing my mum sitting on it when they looked over the garden fence. Instead of saying 'Well, actually I really want to put the bench in my garden as it has memories for me too' I heard myself saying 'Yes, of course you can have the bench' all the while feeling so cross with myself. This kind of thing has happened SO many other times with different people

[Professor Willow]

I'm thinking about why my anxiety is always worse around October and November, then it dawned on me that 10 years ago I was bracing myself to lose my nan to cancer, 6 years ago I was moving house, 5 years ago my mother was hospitalised with endometrial cancer and last year a family friend was living her last few days riddled with cancer.

It's no wonder I automatically go into stress mode at this time of year.

[Percy]

Damn, Leslie Philips has died

[choirgirl]

Gosh I'm glad your daughter is okay Indigo. That must be very hard.

Wonder if you can ask for the bench back, Consolida? Consider it the SA challenge of the week!

Well, I'm used to being gay now, (about time!) but I have a long way to go to be a well adjusted gay.

[Indigo_]

Thank you for the well wishes

[Professor Willow]

Lucozade.
I remember when I was little Lucozade was reserved for when someone in the house was poorly and even then it was only drunk sparingly.
Now it's everywhere and people drink it like water.

[Stepford]

Originally Posted by Professor Willow

Lucozade.
I remember when I was little Lucozade was reserved for when someone in the house was poorly and even then it was only drunk sparingly.
Now it's everywhere and people drink it like water.

In the 70s/80s Lucozade was lovely. My mum would get me a bottle (glass with amber wrap) when I was unwell. I tried the so-called original Lucozade a few months ago and it was disgusting and no way tastes like the original. I rarely throw things away but I had to tip it down the sink. On Tescos the reviews are mostly five stars, I wonder if they ever had the real original.