How is everyone feeling? (30)

[Custard_cream]

Originally Posted by Pablo Huntsbach

I keep trying to call the number to get put on the waiting list for counciling but chicken ing out at the last minute, or sleeping in late until the office is closed or the line's too busy. It's pathetic, I'm pathetic and neither me nor my life are ever going to get better.

Have you spoken to your doctor about how you are feeling? They may be able to put you on the waiting list. You are not pathetic at all. I hope you are feeling better soon.

Feeling so tired tonight.

[Caribou]

Originally Posted by Ozzy

Sorry Lee didn't know you had an appointment also, all the best and hope things are OK.

Thanks Ozzy

[Caribou]

Originally Posted by multiple miggs

hungry. egg sandwich w/brown sauce then bed and a film. sold.

Brown sauce on an egg sandwich? Salad cream for me

[Z.]

Originally Posted by multiple miggs

hungry. egg sandwich w/brown sauce then bed and a film. sold.

What film?? I'm going for Bourne Supremacy tonight

[Caribou]

Originally Posted by multiple miggs

^ you heathen. brown.

[Rocket Spud]

Originally Posted by Caribou

Brown sauce on an egg sandwich? Salad cream for me

That's disgraceful

[Caribou]

Originally Posted by Rocket Spud

That's disgraceful

Look, you've got funny nipples, so butt out

[Rocket Spud]

Originally Posted by Caribou

Look, you've got funny nipples, so butt out

You nasty, nasty person ... please delete that picture .. i forbid you keep it any longer

[Caribou]

Originally Posted by multiple miggs

wrote my name on it with the brown sauce, yum yumz.

My name would be easier to write in sauce (Lee)

[Caribou]

Originally Posted by Rocket Spud

You nasty, nasty person ... please delete that picture .. i forbid you keep it any longer

Haha, I got no picture. I remember it though

[Caribou]

Originally Posted by multiple miggs

mines three letters too, so nah, mine.

Yeah, Joe

[Rocket Spud]

Originally Posted by Caribou

Haha, I got no picture. I remember it though

.. Sorted

[Caribou]

Originally Posted by Rocket Spud

.. Sorted

Nope, I still remember it. Your Neuralyzer must be malfunctioning

[Pablo Huntsbach]

Originally Posted by newbie2013

You're not pathetic try everyday and in time you will have the confidence to do it,good luck

Originally Posted by Custard_cream

Have you spoken to your doctor about how you are feeling? They may be able to put you on the waiting list. You are not pathetic at all. I hope you are feeling better soon.

Feeling so tired tonight.

Thanks, I've been to my doctor recently, was told that I need to call the number and refer myself for counciling. Honestly feel like I could do with a bit more guidance to be honest but that's what he told me to do and if I have this much trouble making a phone call I'm not likely to be able to argue with a doctor.

If I'm not pathetic because I can't make a phone call then I am pathetic for thinking about the same girl every single day since I last saw her over a year ago and still having nights where I can't sleep at all for getting overly emotional about the whole thing. How can I be so emotionally invested in somebody who obviously cared so little about me…

[Rocket Spud]

Originally Posted by Caribou

Nope, I still remember it. Your Neuralyzer must be malfunctioning

.. Bloody .. git!

[Caribou]

Originally Posted by Rocket Spud

.. Bloody .. git!

Poor Spudster. May your packages be small tomorrow


I'm away to my bed

[Azalea]

Originally Posted by Caribou

Poor Spudster. May your packages be small tomorrow

[likeme]

Cold hands, anxious (what's new) but not overtaken by anxiety, bored, tired, cold, focused, underwhelmed, unemployed, cold hands cold hands, anxious.

[Rocket Spud]

Like a pervert - but in a good way!

The most gorgeous of creatures answered the door to me earlier wearing just a t-shirt. She must've been dossing or just woke, but she looked all kinds of fine to me. All i could think about for the next hour was her legs .. . .i accidentally missed a few turnoffs because of her!




.. I need to get out more

[Mo34]

Originally Posted by Nat36

I feel bloody fantastic. I've experienced some serious changes in perception over the last week or so and I'm remembering in earnest how I used to feel pre panic, or I should say in the absence of panic, and it feels incredible. I'm pretty certain these changes are becoming permanent as well which is very exciting but want to give it a week or two to make certain. I can finally see an end to the nightmare of the last 3.5 years.

That's fantastic Nat, good for you.

[Hades]

Nicht so gut. Finally managed to get an interview after 4 months searching and I completely ****ed it up.

[Custard_cream]

Originally Posted by Nat36

I feel bloody fantastic. I've experienced some serious changes in perception over the last week or so and I'm remembering in earnest how I used to feel pre panic, or I should say in the absence of panic, and it feels incredible. I'm pretty certain these changes are becoming permanent as well which is very exciting but want to give it a week or two to make certain. I can finally see an end to the nightmare of the last 3.5 years.

That's fantastic news Nat. I'm really happy for you.

[Focused]

Originally Posted by Nat36

I feel bloody fantastic. I've experienced some serious changes in perception over the last week or so and I'm remembering in earnest how I used to feel pre panic, or I should say in the absence of panic, and it feels incredible. I'm pretty certain these changes are becoming permanent as well which is very exciting but want to give it a week or two to make certain. I can finally see an end to the nightmare of the last 3.5 years.

Thats great Nat

Originally Posted by Custard_cream

Feeling really rubbishy at the moment. Nearly cried at work. One assumption and they've got it completely wrong. Time to be honest.

[Indigo_]

Like it's Friday and I've been back at work for a month (to my knowledge it's only Tuesday and I've been back at work for 48 hours )

[Custard_cream]

Originally Posted by multiple miggs

you okay emz?

I will be, thanks Joe. Big bag of M&Ms, some red wine and a good cry will sort it. I think I let things bother me too much.

[Mo34]

I've got to do a stupid speaking thing infront of an auidence on Monday with pretty much a stranger .
She's just emailed me to work out our dialogue. I've written my stuff out, but can't bring myself to click 'send'. Sending it is a proper commitment to going through with it.
I'm terrified whilst amused. How can I be so idiotically frightened of bugger all?

If the email's an issue I can't wait for the car crash anxiety wise that will be Monday.......

oh dear, what a life.

[anxiouslondoner]

Originally Posted by Suedehead

Hopeful for the future.

Great, hope it lasts for you!

Originally Posted by Nat

I feel bloody fantastic. I've experienced some serious changes in perception over the last week or so and I'm remembering in earnest how I used to feel pre panic, or I should say in the absence of panic, and it feels incredible. I'm pretty certain these changes are becoming permanent as well which is very exciting but want to give it a week or two to make certain. I can finally see an end to the nightmare of the last 3.5 years.

That's great news Nat.

I'm feeling a bit lonely, but kind of OK.

[likeme]

I wrote this last year at the start of March. I am moving again now. The thing telling me how wrong I am has made its ugly return.
"God I am mad. I'm moving house today. Who cares. This isn't annual leave. I'm tired. No I'm fine. My current housemate thinks I'm an idiot. She pulled this face at me last night. This face that said: what on earth are you? why are you? Why do you exist as you are? The entire universe is about to demonstrate its rejection of me. Or not. Or it's just that my coping strategies cause me to feel this way. Which sucks when I can't see outside of it. And everyone else carries on like it's all normal. And I am holding on too hard to something. And look at me moaning. Look at what I am. What. I. Am. This thing. The loudest thing in my life is the thing telling me just how wrong I am, I am being constantly warned of the potential for my wrongness. Or I'm just talking rubbish, utter rubbish. See there it is."

[Custard_cream]

Originally Posted by Focused

Thanks Focused.

Originally Posted by Nat36

sorry you feel crap CC. Sometimes a bit of honesty can be very empowering even if its not easy to start with.

Thanks Nat. I think it has got to be done, but I am scared of the reaction.

[Princess39]

Like I don't exist.