Found this on another forum.

[!>Y\e5l-%h-NMw>cH]

"I can relate to not wanting to work, but in a different way. Even when I have a job doing what I love and what I have been educated for, I cannot tolerate the constraint of having a job. I cannot stand to be owned by anything or having to answer to anyone. I also hate having to do the same routine, namely going to the same place at the same time everyday whether I feel like it or not. It steals my sense of freedom in life. I feel like a prisoner when I am employed and I become depressed from it. I can't stand waiting for the weekend so that I can be free - then it just goes by so fast and I have to repeat the same cycle over again, counting the days until freedom. Even when I'm not at work I get stressed out that I will soon again lose my freedom. I can't take it and feel like I'm the only one who suffers so much from having to work."

I can relate to a lot of this.

This is how I felt in the past when I did work, and even had jobs that I enjoyed a bit for various reasons.

I hate being stuck in the position I'm in now because I have no freedom.

But even in a job that involves something I like I'd stil feel like I had no freedom.

The chance of me getting a job that I did like is almost impossible because theres not much I do like, thanks to my boy depression. :rolleyes:

Plus I'm basically unemployable anyway so probabaly woudld'nt get a job that I hated, especially in the current climate where they can get peolple with degrees to stack shelves.

*hugs lotto ticket* :rolleyes:

[E Dub]

Originally Posted by Frustration!

"I can relate to not wanting to work, but in a different way. Even when I have a job doing what I love and what I have been educated for, I cannot tolerate the constraint of having a job. I cannot stand to be owned by anything or having to answer to anyone. I also hate having to do the same routine, namely going to the same place at the same time everyday whether I feel like it or not. It steals my sense of freedom in life. I feel like a prisoner when I am employed and I become depressed from it. I can't stand waiting for the weekend so that I can be free - then it just goes by so fast and I have to repeat the same cycle over again, counting the days until freedom. Even when I'm not at work I get stressed out that I will soon again lose my freedom. I can't take it and feel like I'm the only one who suffers so much from having to work."

I can relate to a lot of this.

This is how I felt in the past when I did work, and even had jobs that I enjoyed a bit for various reasons.

I hate being stuck in the position I'm in now because I have no freedom.

But even in a job that involves something I like I'd stil feel like I had no freedom.

The chance of me getting a job that I did like is almost impossible because theres not much I do like, thanks to my boy depression. :rolleyes:

Plus I'm basically unemployable anyway so probabaly woudld'nt get a job that I hated, especially in the current climate where they can get peolple with degrees to stack shelves.

*hugs lotto ticket* :rolleyes:

I feel exactly like that.

The only job I want to do is to be a sportsman (footballer, Cricketer or 400m runner) but I ****ed up any chance I had by doing drugs and not taking it seriously enough. Would love to be a racing driver but i'll never get sponsorship so that aint gonna happen either, i've been thinking about what job would I actually be glad to wake up in the morning and do for about a year and i've still not found one

[!>Y\e5l-%h-NMw>cH]

Originally Posted by E Dub

I feel exactly like that.

The only job I want to do is to be a sportsman (footballer, Cricketer or 400m runner) but I ****ed up any chance I had by doing drugs and not taking it seriously enough. Would love to be a racing driver but i'll never get sponsorship so that aint gonna happen either, i've been thinking about what job would I actually be glad to wake up in the morning and do for about a year and i've still not found one

I'd like to be a pro fighter but I'm way too much of a pussy.

I'd like to work in porn but again I'm not man enough.

[sophie79]

Your quote is exactly how I feel, to a tee. I voiced the same feelings to other people and they respond as if I'm just bone idle. Unless I'm deluding myself, I'm sure it's not laziness that's the issue.

What can you do though. I need money to live, ergo I have to work

[TheOneWhoKnocks]

I feel exactly like that, but I don't think there is a way out though

Originally Posted by yaztromo

I voiced the same feelings to other people and they respond as if I'm just bone idle. Unless I'm deluding myself, I'm sure it's not laziness that's the issue.

Me too

[E Dub]

Bank job anyone?

[diplodocus]

Originally Posted by Frustration!

I'd like to be a pro fighter but I'm way too much of a pussy.

Ah same here except I've never been disciplined enough and my mum made me do ballet instead of martial arts. All those wasted years

[zestyz]

Good article-Money doesn't motivate me at all and nor does the opportunity of job progress. The idea of having to go to the same place, at the same time every day is depressing. Having to wake up with horrendous anxiety just to go to work every day is exhausting. Filling in application forms feels like I'm committing fraud trying to sell my motivations and ambitions for the role.

But hey, I just don't want to work, I'm lazy, bone idle etc

[Winnie57]

You might not feel the same way in EVERY job. I know it is difficult today though to find anything, never mind your ideal job. Maybe you could get some sort of career counselling.

I am unhappy at work at the moment but have to stick it out because I am safe here as I have worked here a long time.

[Gattaca]

Good quote and sums me up too. This was the main reason I lived off my savings the past 8 yrs. I don't regret a penny I spent because it equalled freedom. Since I signed on for JSA I've noticed my general mood has plummeted and it's all because I know I'll not have that long term freedom anymore. I know that 'they' will monitor everything I do from now on and once again the system has its claws in me.

I'll be able to claim my £2k a year civil service pension when I hit 60. All I need to do now is fill in the next 20 yrs doing some monotonous shit for peanuts (because that's all I'm qualified to do)

Option 2 is sign off, live off my savings for 1 last year then call it a night. Option 2 crops up in my head very often these days.

[AutumnLeaves]

Originally Posted by Frustration!

I'd like to be a pro fighter but I'm way too much of a pussy.

I'd like to work in porn but again I'm not man enough.

Porn makes a slave of those who participate in it and those who use it.

[GoldFish]

I nearly went crazy working at my last full time job which lasted two years, just the repetativeness of it. i'd get home at 6:30pm eat dinner before i knew it the night was over...so i'd end up staying up all night so i had more time to myself, this meant i was becoming an insomniac...i think the problem is also whether or not the form of emploment feels worthy enough. like for instance it was a low income job in a factory for a small business. parts of the job i enjoyed but it felt like a dead end job, i'm in a dead end job right now (dishwashing) in a restaurant aka (pretty horrible)....i keep getting stuck in low income jobs, this is not good for my state of mind, i have a diploma level education which is good but i'm not getting any feedback from that line of work aka (programming) which is a bit of a let down
i believe that if i could obtain work in a secure, decent-pay, job that has a future i'd probably be a little more motivated to experience ground hog day in that environment...but if i stay in this realm of work for too much longer i may as well give up the ghost because there is no future or progression doign what i'm doing right now, the only reason i'm doing it is because i have to earn some money to pay rent....but the job is fairly soul destroying.

[GoldFish]

Originally Posted by Gattaca

Good quote and sums me up too. This was the main reason I lived off my savings the past 8 yrs. I don't regret a penny I spent because it equalled freedom. Since I signed on for JSA I've noticed my general mood has plummeted and it's all because I know I'll not have that long term freedom anymore. I know that 'they' will monitor everything I do from now on and once again the system has its claws in me.

I'll be able to claim my £2k a year civil service pension when I hit 60. All I need to do now is fill in the next 20 yrs doing some monotonous shit for peanuts (because that's all I'm qualified to do)

Option 2 is sign off, live off my savings for 1 last year then call it a night. Option 2 crops up in my head very often these days.

gattaca, how do you live off saving for 8 years? you'd have to be loaded to even consider it...

[NoiseTerrorist]

Excellent thread, something I can relate to. I don't think it's a problem exclusive to those with social anxiety.

I'm only 23, rapidly approaching 24 (welp!), and I'm thinking "Is this it? Is this all there is to life? Is this all I have to look forward to for the next 40 or so years?". It's all seems so mundane and pointless.

I dislike my job, I feel trapped in it. The thing is, is that I'm not a paticularly materialistic person and don't spend a great deal of what I earn. Expensive clothes, expensive cars, jewelery etc. don't interest me. So everyday I wonder "Why exactly am I putting myself through all this?". But then I remember there is food to buy and bills to be paid. Not only that, but as an only child I have all of my parents expectations forced upon me - they expect me to end up in a well paid job, but all that is happening is that I'm sinking into a career I have no interest in; a career I don't enjoy. If I were to quit, I'd face their wrath and dissapointment. Christ.

But what are the alternatives? How can I break this cycle that society forces us in to? The only things I can think of would be to be my own boss somehow, but I'm a bit stuck for ideas on that front. That or earning a living through some artistic endeavour; but that is merely a pipe dream.

There's an excellent Austrian film called "The Seventh Continent" which is about the violent mundane drag of everyday life. It's a very slow, sparse and stark film with little dialogue and I wouldn't recommend it for everyone, but it does explore the trappings of modern society very nicely.

[sophie79]

Has anyone seen that film "Into the Wild" where a young man gets sick of being trapped in modern society and just walks into the Alaskan wilderness with a bag of rice and a rifle? I often dream I'm going to do the same, but of course never do.

[zestyz]

Originally Posted by NoiseTerrorist

But what are the alternatives? How can I break this cycle that society forces us in to? The only things I can think of would be to be my own boss somehow, but I'm a bit stuck for ideas on that front. That or earning a living through some artistic endeavour; but that is merely a pipe dream.

You sound almost exactly like me when I go on a rant about the philosophy of work. The SA makes getting (not in my case but currently (semi)trying) and sustaining any job hard, but I feel I could cope once I get a routine and stability.

However, I hate the idea of getting trapped doing something I hate, spending all my free time making money for other people, stressing myself out over trivial matters. Money is not important as I know I won't spend it on anything apart from essentials (maybe a ps3 game here and there haha). Though you can only function in society if you follow the trend, sleep-work-eat-sleep etc as bills need to be paid.

I like the concept of a hunter gatherer lifestyle, living free with food and health the only worry. Yet on this earth we merely live like animals at the zoo, being made to work by doing tricks for their food, and excluded and disparaged by others if you don't comply.

I was thinking the other day what I would do if I won the lottery, unrealistic; yes, but good for seeking motivation. I couldn't come up with an answer except perhaps working for myself pursuing a creative outlet. With that seemingly very unlikely, I guess I'll be forced to settle for mid-management mediocrity at some mid-scale firm earning an average wage for the rest of my life...oh joy-how many years until I can retire???

[Gattaca]

Originally Posted by GoldFish

gattaca, how do you live off saving for 8 years? you'd have to be loaded to even consider it...

I had 27k saved and had no mortgage/car/kids. Spending £25k for 8yrs of freedom was a pretty good deal I reckon!

1 week of John Terry's salary would last me to 60