Type what you're thinking about right now? (9)

[Fantastical]

Symbolism and Imagism.

Too similar...

[Azalea]

The party I'm going to in about an hour.
It's for my 2 year old Grandson and only at their house but his mum's family are loud and there are loads of them so I'm dreading it.

[Z.]

Originally Posted by Azalea

The party I'm going to in about an hour.
It's for my 2 year old Grandson and only at their house but his mum's family are loud and there are loads of them so I'm dreading it.

Just try not to start any fights Azalea. We know what you're like when you've been drinking.

[Silent Ninja]

Originally Posted by stoopkid

using forums just makes me feel more lonely.

I think that's because the interaction on a forum will never be the same as seeing someone in real life, it just isn't ever going to be as fulfilling.

For some of us it's the best we've got at the moment though and communicating with people that you don't know what they look like or what their real personality is, is actually better than nothing at all and can't be doing any harm as long as we're all going to keep trying to improve and get out there and meet people in person eventually (which I'm promising myself I'll start on next year, changing jobs might be a good place to start, but without building confidence I don't really know if I'll be able to do this).

[Azalea]

Originally Posted by Kley

Just try not to start any fights Azalea. We know what you're like when you've been drinking.

I don't drink

[Fantastical]

I have GOT to get this bloody thing planned today.

[I Love My Cats]

Originally Posted by Princess39

Cancelling xmas.

Same here. Everything is just so hard and draining. I'm struggling to manage my own responsibilities and my parents. Can't stop crying and I don't know what on earth's coming next. I just want to spend the next 2 weeks hiding from everything and everyone, rather than have to pretend to the world that everything's great and happy, when it's all falling apart around me. I can't bear to be around others either as it then becomes obvious that everything is not okay and I'm not like them. I want to be, but there's pressure everywhere, and stuff expected of me that I can't fulfil. I don't know what's coming next and what purpose all of this has, other than thinking that it's payback for something in my life and that it wouldn't be happening if I was a better person, like everyone else seems to be

[Indigo_]

Originally Posted by I Love My Bump

Same here. Everything is just so hard and draining. I'm struggling to manage my own responsibilities and my parents. Can't stop crying and I don't know what on earth's coming next. I just want to spend the next 2 weeks hiding from everything and everyone, rather than have to pretend to the world that everything's great and happy, when it's all falling apart around me. I can't bear to be around others either as it then becomes obvious that everything is not okay and I'm not like them. I want to be, but there's pressure everywhere, and stuff expected of me that I can't fulfil. I don't know what's coming next and what purpose all of this has, other than thinking that it's payback for something in my life and that it wouldn't be happening if I was a better person, like everyone else seems to be

I'm sorry things aren't good right now It's definitely not payback though, don't think that way, you're a lovely person

[Princess39]

Originally Posted by I Love My Bump

Same here. Everything is just so hard and draining. I'm struggling to manage my own responsibilities and my parents. Can't stop crying and I don't know what on earth's coming next. I just want to spend the next 2 weeks hiding from everything and everyone, rather than have to pretend to the world that everything's great and happy, when it's all falling apart around me. I can't bear to be around others either as it then becomes obvious that everything is not okay and I'm not like them. I want to be, but there's pressure everywhere, and stuff expected of me that I can't fulfil. I don't know what's coming next and what purpose all of this has, other than thinking that it's payback for something in my life and that it wouldn't be happening if I was a better person, like everyone else seems to be

So sorry you feel that way..I'm sure you're a great person..you're just not feeling it.Sounds like you're putting too much pressure on yourself.No-one's perfect honey.I sometimes feel like I could just dive down a black hole and just pop up now and again.Christmas is very stressful and although I cba with it and hiding my true feelings,I have to just grin and bear it.Good excuse to get pissed though.Hope you feel better soon.x

[Indigo_]

I'm thinking how incredibly stupid it is of me to think that I can book a food delivery slot five days before Christmas and expect supermarkets to still have slots available

[Mo34]

^
I thankfully remembered and booked my slot well In advance (though I could still only get the 21st). Guess obsessive worrying about everything has it's advantages after all....

[Indigo_]

^ I've tried Tesco and Asda and can't remember my login to Sainsburys. Looks like I'm braving Morrisons tomorrow with a trolley

[Silent Ninja]

Originally Posted by Samba.

It's great knowing that no one gives a crap about what I have to say. That invisibility cloak is back on. Might have to take a break from social media and other such things as it will forever try and drag me back down to rock bottom. Seeing everyone get responses, likes and all that and me getting feck all every time is quite draining strangely. It amazes me how much popularity everyone seems to have compared to me. Am I really that bad?
You could say this is just depression speaking but I'm not even feeling low, just annoyed that being myself, being really shy is like a terrible thing and being super chatty is the way to go.

Lots of posts go by the wayside on this forum, I think it's due to the nature of the forum itself, it is a place for people with SA, so if everyone is like me then most posters will be reading posts and thinking they should reply but either can't think of anything to say or get nervous about the reply they think of and worry about how it would be received by the poster.

[Tom Morello]

Originally Posted by Troy

Lots of posts go by the wayside on this forum, I think it's due to the nature of the forum itself, it is a place for people with SA, so if everyone is like me then most posters will be reading posts and thinking they should reply but either can't think of anything to say or get nervous about the reply they think of and worry about how it would be received by the poster.

I was more having a rant at Facebook, should've been clearer.

[Silent Ninja]

Originally Posted by Samba.

I was more having a rant at Facebook, should've been clearer.

Oh, now I feel a bit silly

[Princess39]

^ Unless they're a channel hopper or master remote-controller!

[Pablo Huntsbach]

Highlight of my day was getting a smile from the foreign girl behind the counter at Costa. Not only is that quite pathetic it also makes me a living cliche.

[hellotiger]

This rosé is so gross. I'd better drink it fast and in large quantities.
I saw a bat by the train station earlier. It's the first time I've ever seen one flying about.

[hellotiger]

^No the iPad keeps doing it and I haven't figured out how to make it not. Boring but accurate.

[Focused]

I found a fiver earlier stood in a queue. Quite an awkward moment. Maybe I would have asked people if they'd dropped it if I wasn't bothered about possibly drawing attention to myself. And theres no way I was gonna walk round the shop asking everyone if it was theirs. So I just kept stum and went about my buisness then left... Now what to spent it on?

[Focused]

^ Hell no!!, I'm keeping this taking for myself

[Mo34]

That I've got to stop posting when sleepy and not paying attention, so as not not to keep having to edit/delete stuff.
To bed I think

[Focused]

^ It is getting late now. I'm not tired just yet but should be by the end of this film

[Pandapop]

There's a sexy man in my bed

[Mikei]

Bicycles and the possibility of committing some kind of sartorial faux-pas during the day.

[[Martin]]

Straight-talking lard-buster Steve Miller is so funny

[Tom Morello]

Originally Posted by Suedehead

Jelly. I want a sexy man in my bed.

Kley is available i believe. ; )

And erm























































































































me.

[Tom Morello]

These names get more and more "whacky" shall we say.

[Focused]

Its funny how people turn ugly when they don't get what they want from you

[Z.]

Time to start on the shandy methinks.