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hate
do you ever feel like you just hate everything and everyone?
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#2
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Re: hate
I don't feel hate - just a need to avoid.
To me, to feel hate implies that I've been wronged by others somehow. I feel that my emotions are a product of my reactions to my situation, not a product of my response to what someone has done to me. |
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Re: hate
Yes, I feel like this most of the time. As the years have gone on the strength of the hate has diminished, I feel more saddened by everything. I think because I'm getting nearer to death and freedom from this, things are getting easier.
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Re: hate
I go through periods when I feel like I just hate everything, it seems to be getting worse for me a I get older.
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#5
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Re: hate
^ Interesting thought. Mum is a very angry outwardly hateful person towards many people individually, while I'm very inwardly hateful and saddened by our failed race as a whole, so I don't think it hold true of us.
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Re: hate
I do hate a lot, it's horribly negative,
I think it's just trapped, unfulfilled energy, I mainly hate myself at never overcoming SA and always being fearful of things, of life really, It's just such a horrible trapped, suffocating feeling to be fearful of pretty much every interaction, Hate does seem to be the catalyst for me dealing with stuff and making changes in my life though, My hatred of my self-imposed isolation as a way of coping with SA tends to build up, And then I really need to make changes and turn things around, My hate just seems to build up because I'm such an avoider and procrastinator, It just builds because I never want to change anything in my life, no matter how shit it is. |
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Re: hate
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That made me smile |
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Re: hate
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Re: hate
I don't know if hate is quite the right word. More like tired of playing the game of life; being forced to go through the motions every day when it's pointless in the end anyway. I do see the point to some things, and do get some pleasures, but I'll be glad when all this shite is over with. The struggle and hassle is not worth what you actually get.
Plus I'm getting older and uglier which pisses me off considerably. It seems to me we're all just trying to stay comfortable until we die. Mostly everything we strive for is about trying to become, or trying to remain, comfortable. Pretty lame really. Quote:
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Re: hate
I'm not really hateful, i could be but i chose not to - bitter is what i am. If i can't find a better life then i'd rather die without fuss.
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