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Is there any hope?
Hi, I have been a member here for a few years but have never posted anything. I'm feeling increasingly desperate though and wondering if there is any hope for the future. I am 34 (female) and have had social anxiety probably all my life. I just cannot connect with people and can't form genuine friendships or relationships. I just feel like I have totally failed at life. I do have a job and I know that is something to be grateful for but I find the social interaction aspect so stressful and it never gets easier. Anyone I meet never gets past being an acquaintance, I just can't do anything deeper. I also never meet people and actually really like them, I usually am annoyed or intimidated by them. I have no life basically and feel increasing panic that my life is slipping away and I haven't done anything, been anywhere etc. My hopes of finding a partner are pretty non existent now and I feel upset and also a bit embarrassed about it (never had a relationship). Is anyone else in a similar position? Anyone ever managed to turn things around and have friends etc at this stage in life? Thanks x
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Re: Is there any hope?
Hi Felina,
Totally relate to this i am in exactly the same situation. I think it is excellent you do have a job though, well done, it is very difficult living with SA, I only have friends online. Ian |
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Hi feline, I'd say welcome to the forum but it's probably a little late for that! I remember joining and feeling that if I didn't make my first post immediately, I'd probably never pluck up the courage to do it, so I can't imagine what it took to make a post after almost six years!
Yes, there is definitely hope - and for you, I hope that things change earlier in life than they did for me (I was twenty years older than you when I started having a social life). You say that you don't really like people you meet, that you feel either irritated or intimated by them, that you can't connect: are you able to determine a reason for this? Is it lack of shared interests, or different views on life, or are you just meeting obnoxious people? Do you see it as a problem with them, or with you? I don't know how much you've been reading posts during your time here, but you may have seen me give this advice before: instead of trying to fit in with the people around you, try looking for people who fit in with you; by this, I mean that, if you have any interests or passions, look for groups (on Facebook, Instagram, meetup or wherever) who cater for your interests and try to build contacts there - a single shared interest can go a long way in bonding. It's certainly not too late to find a partner either - you would be surprised how many people your age (or close to it) had not found anyone by that time, but are now in happy relationships. Of course, not liking people you meet would be a barrier to that, but if you do find people you get on with, a relationship may well emerge from that (and if not, there is always internet dating, in which you can be specific about the type of person you want to meet and filter out those who aren't agreeable to you). I can't claim to have turned things around at your stage in life - as I mentioned, for me it came twenty years later - but it is possible. These days, with a high divorce rate, there are quite a few women your age, or not much older, who are coming out of lengthy relationships and looking for friendships - or people moving to new areas, or who have also had difficulties in forming close friendships in younger life and looking to do so in their 30s and 40s (or late 20s). I'm sorry to keep returning to this one theme, but if you can address the reasons you're not getting on with people in the first instance, then there is every hope of finding friendships and/or relationships in the future. |
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Have one friend nearby can meet up with but haven't seen for months. suffer with depression so often don't want to be around other people if feeling low. Ashamed and dismayed at myself that i'm at this point in my life with nothing. Mid thirties would have liked to have my own family, house, decent paid job, circle of friends but have nothing. Feel like I've wasted so many years and also scary to think i'm heading towards 40. Don't have many hobbies or interests really and am usually at home reading, playing video games, nothing that gets me out the house. Pretty dull life, worried for the future, hoping I can make a decent life for myself after I graduate but whether things will fall into place for me I can only hope and pray. |
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Hi,
Thank you to everyone who has replied and shared their story. I'm not sure how the replying thing works so hopefully I have done this right! It is honestly helpful just to know that I am not the only person. When I said i don't like people I meet I think it's mostly a lack of connection and just feeling that they don't understand me/I don't understand them rather than them being obnoxious. I think that is a good way to think about it though gregarious_introvert- to try and find people who fit in with me instead of the other way round. Your story does give me hope though - what was it that changed things for you? I have joined meetup but have not plucked up the courage to go to anything yet, has anyone had any success with meetup and been able to make friends? Tom1985 I totally understand the feeling of having wasted so many years and feeling ashamed of where I am in life, it's great that you are at uni though, i don't think I'd have the courage to be a student at this age so i think that's amazing- i really hope that things improve when you graduate. Thanks |
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Hi, Felina. Exactly the same situation as you; 34 with a job but not much else to speak of. Feel like life is slipping away. I wish I could offer some advice, we just have to keep on keeping on I guess. I hope you meet some people you can form a connection with. I do understand the feeling of being irritated by some people though.
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Hi Felina. I also feel irritated by some people. For me its just the smug, unfriendly, mean, arrogant people in the world who I can't stand. I hope you find this site helpful.
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If you are thinking about that first meetup, my advice would be to choose something which fits your interests (for me it was walking, I only attended meets which involved walking until I felt confident doing other things) so you are more likely to meet like-minded people. |
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Of course there is hope, there is always hope, it is why you are here, it is why I am here. I have only just found this site and all though I have zero problems jumping right in here, the idea of meetup terrifies me. Aslo I have no idea how to connect with people, seems I can do it one in a billion, it has happened before but..... well, once it has gone it is painful.
Also on the spectrum so I know that non-verbal cues are an issue, never thought to address it, never knew how. Anyway not meaning to hijack this thread, just quickly introducing myself and to say just that, that of course there is hope, it is why we are here. |
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The above also applies to anyone else reading this wanting a SAUK meet local to them - my PM box is always open (I recently cleared out a lot of messages, it does get full quite often). |
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^maybe worth a thread in the meet section here with a poll? That way people can stay anonymous if they'd rather whilst giving an opinion? Not quite sure how to carve up into manageable regions but if anyone has the geographic knowledge for that then it has to be GI..!!
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^ That's a good idea, but (a) I don't know how to make a poll and (b) I don't know how many options one can have in a poll. Of course, if someone more technically minded were to set one up for me, or give me an idiot's guide, I'd be happy to.
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A poll is pretty easy, just click the check box next to "Yes, post a poll with this thread" at the bottom of the page when creating a new thread, click post, then fill in the information on the following page.
The mainland is usually divided into 11 sections: You can have a poll with up to 30 options though, if you want to make it even more specific, and you can allow people to vote for as many options as they want. |
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I'm not in great shape myself, plus I'm 43 (what I wouldn't give to be 34!). I can totally understand the sense of embarrassment, and also your fear about the future. And I know what you mean about struggling to connect. The sense of failure and shame makes it even worse, doesn't it. I tend to push people away because I don't want them finding out about my pathetic failure of a life. In my experience, the key to building friendships when you are over 30 is a mutual interest. You have to offer something. Do you have any interests? Music? Painting? For example, if you love art galleries, you could join a chat forum, or even go to a class, and then, when you meet someone who also likes the paintings of David Hockney (to take a random example), you have a way in. You can say "oh, that's interesting. I meet so few Hockney fans. Maybe we could meet for a coffee some time and have a chat about him." That sounds so much more natural than "would you like to meet for a drink and be my friend"! Obviously it doesn't have to be painting - it could be horses, karate, knitting...anything. You probably assume that everyone else has made their friends at school or Uni and don't want any more, but that just isn't true. Lots of people are lonely, while others don't actually like many of the friends they do have! |
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Yes there is a lot of hope.
Change does take a lot of mental effort flexibility though. Main thing is to try to approach it with a sense of humour, especially about yourself, to look after yourself physically while you work on things, and to seek as much help and support from as many sources as you can. |
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Hi,
You can definitely change, however impossible it may seem. Have you been to see a doctor, write down everything you struggle with, how you feel etc, and give it to the doctor. I had CBT and have been on anti-depressants for the last 6 years. I managed to make friends with someone from this forum who I meet up with once a month or so. Going to see a doctor has changed my life. I am still anxious in some social situations, only have one friend, still have never had a relationship, but things have improved so much. I'm 32. Message me if you want to chat. CC |
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I know exactly how you feel, you sound exactly the same as me, only a female version and slightly younger. I'm 40 now and found the older I get the worse I feel. For me meeting women has always been an impossible task so when dating websites came out I thought I'd have more of a chance, how wrong I was, after 15 years of being ignored, swiped left and being told I'm not their type made things much worse mentally, years seem to pass me like weeks now, I've accepted the fact I'm always going to be alone and depressed and frustrated and angry and spend most of my days wishing I wasn't born
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