Never believing anyone wants my company, trust, etc

Originally Posted by mhealer3

hi friends,
i agree with the sometimes emptiness of human relationships.
yes i feel deprived of good care by parents, of genuine interest by 'friends',
& certainly of appreciation at work.
but i believe that each of those persons who failed me has been failed by others also.
i'm aware now, that people are empty themselves, & to rely on them 2 fulfill me is error.
it's constant disappointment that way, & i lost my younger sister to that.
she died out of hopelessness i believe, @ age 31-- because all her family (including me)
were useless, self-absorbed, & often cruel.
i never reached out 2 her because i was fearful of being spurned, as so many times my parents rejected us both.
i have 4giveness only by faith, but still am very lonely in this world.
each day i now treat as the ONLY day-- otherwise the dread of living alone would overwhelm me.
there is no salvation in this world, but only in reaching out 2 touch God.
blessings 4 the new year my friends....
i value your presence here very much.
have hope in God i can testify that He alone Saves me every day from dispair.
Peace 2 u.