Alone

I came across this quote from a book while looking at blogs on social anxiety the other day and it really moved me.It expresses some of the emotions and pain of loneliness into words so truthfully. No matter how much pain isolation creates to talk of your true emotions only pushes people away even more as desperate people are faulty people and faulty people are avoided and ignored.

[B]"It is from that vantage point that I tell you that loneliness itself is the secret. It’s a secret you cannot tell anyone. Why?

Because to confess your loneliness is to confess your failure as a human being. To confess would only cause others to pity and avoid you, afraid that what you have is catching. Your condition is caused by a lack of human relationship, and yet to admit to it only drives your possible rescuers farther away (while attracting cats).

So you attempt to hide your loneliness in public, to behave, in fact, as though you have too many friends already, and thus you hope to attract people who will unwittingly save you. But it never works that way. Your condition is written all over your face, in the hunch of your shoulders, in the hollowness of your laugh. You fool no one.

Believe me in this; I’ve tried all the tricks of the lonely man.”

– ‘Counting Heads’ by David Marusek"[/B]