[B][I]But still the warmth flows through me
And I sense you know me well
No luck, no golden chances
No mitigating circumstances now
It's only common sense
[SIZE="3"]There are no accidents around here[/SIZE][/I][/B]

I think a lot of advice is from people who assume that everyone is in exactly the same boat as them just because they all have anxiety when of course everyone is very different and often has vastly different levels of anxiety...

[B][I]Getting hard to believe in anything at all
But Fear.[/I][/B]

I have started to take some pills called 5 HTP. They came from America and took 10 weeks to arrive which makes them sound dodgy. They are supposed to improve moods and have some good reviews although after 4 days I have noticed nothing so far. Perhaps you need to take 10 a day instead of one but they advised you to start slowly and build up so I'll wait and see. Some days my moods could be appallingly bad, so...

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[B]so hard to move on
still loving what's gone[/B]

I went to the cemetery again this afternoon as I did last Christmas day. Its quite surprising how many people do. Not everyone is stuffing themselves with turkey and drunkenly watching TV all afternoon it seems.Despite trying to find things to fill my day the anxiety has increased from when I got home and...

[B][I]But I still haven't found what I'm looking for[/I][/B]

I remember being young and doing things and blushing and stuttering and feeling like a fool so I stopped doing things. Yes, thats basically why people become avoidant and are still SA into their forties. I remember teachers picking on me to read aloud in class to apparently encourage me and help me as I was shy. So I blushed and stuttered and the other kids took the piss out of me so I became worse and even shyer and even...

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I often look at some of my older pictures for comfort. They bring back feelings of peace and contentment in times of stress. It helps in the same way a favourite song or TV program does.This was taken on a very warm May afternoon in 2010 on a walk in the Peak District not far from Bakewell. Its a lovely old leafy lane with virtually no traffic in the dappled shade of the trees. As usual I was alone but this time I...