I feel like a total ass, I protested that my boyfriends dad doesnt come to a birthday bash, and I got my way.
to me it feels like I asked him to choose between me and him, I just hope my SA doesnt come between us anymore than it has now.

Ive been dating my boyfriend for 4 years now and ive been okay with his parents, but since ive had SA im more and more uncomfortable with them. Its his 21st brithday on sunday and he already had a meal with his family, so now its my turn to spend with him and great his dad is coming up. I hate it, I feel so alarmed and on edge, im not going to enjoy myself because to me hes a 'stranger' :/

Cant believe it, havent been on this site in 2 months
Ive got to admit, im feeling much better in myself and I havent been crying literally everyday. Ive really got to say, exercise has helped alot! plus ive lost a stone [ whey hey]

After my challenge to call my friends up one after the other I got more out of it than I'd planned at all. They came to visit I went to visit; this is some of that.

I was hoping that the SA would be a thing of the past by now but here I am again. It's been a topsy turvy couple of years. Ended up getting sectioned again in Spring of 2009. That was fun (not). Then after I was released went into another long bout of depression, well over 12 months. Ah the wonders of Bi-polar.

Things not diddling too badly now though. It's not that I haven't made any inroads in getting over SA. I'm doing stuff now that I wouldn't have dreamed about in the past,...