Hi Indigo, thanks for the visit. The sunrise moment is worth the distress, well it felt to be true for me. You have a great imagination! In our wild forested past for sure there would have been wolves and bears prowling! I once had a hedgehog crawl right in, over me as I slept and rifle through my food- he laid a large poop too! Boldness!

Thanks slrrrp, your comment is very helpful - I often feel to be posting into a void and get a bit vulnerable esp as writing such personal stuff that may just seem utter nonsense to anyone who is not me lol. Hope you are having a good day

Thanks Mark. I had to surf another huge wave of turbulence last night. Chaos imposed from outside leading to intense anxiety at a time when I was already fully depleted. Feeling battered, but I followed my own advice lol and just let it be awful and hope I would wake up feeling better. And I just about did, but hope today is calmer sailing!
Really need that rest and recharge!!

^ Thank you!

Yes, I really do prefer a text/phonecall beforehand. Then I could get good and comfortable and generally have a better time.

I have a couple of friends who tend to 'drop by', I think it's cos they like it when ppl do this to them and they assume that everyone is the same.

'Freeze and hide' is a good response, good for you! It's my deeply entrenched ppl pleasing that is such a reflex to open the door with a fake smile and 'welcome' them in.

I like my friends, I just need to plan the time I spend with ppl, hopefully not a control issue, but personal energy management.

Thanks for the conversation.

Hi Indigo, it is kind of you to comment, I realise I am being bold with the theme. I have fully resurfaced. Summer rain is great, its easier to appreciate without the cold and greens everything up so beautifully.

Thank you Riccip That is very kind of you to comment - I feel enouraged

Thanks. The Pagan festivals endure although the Christian church has hijacked the timings; there is a happy concordance of themes, mostly. I feel the meaning and depth have been mostly obscured by mass commerce, but these seasonal rituals are important markers in the psyche and we all need some spring revelry.

Well dressing is such a beautiful and simple honouring of the source of life. I expect you have some great photos from those festivals.

Hi Thanks for the encouragement. I will check out the vid you mention. Yes, the diet -mood thing is huge. I can too easily self-medicate with starch and sugar, whereas my body seems to require higher protein/fat for metabolic gains.
Glad you dropped by!