At most I have been a woman's friend, partly my fault as I didn't accept dates from a few girls in High School as I was scared and had identity issues. When I was 8 I played with some girls but it was widely discouraged by some family members. After that I just tried to fit in or hide to not attract any attention and hung around with other boys, usually the less cool ones.

It's as an adult that I have found that although it's difficult to talk to most people, sometimes it's like...

This week I have taken a break from most social media. I have limited my Youtube viewing, Temporarily deactivated my Facebook, Instagram and Twitter accounts and also took a break from SAUK. Limiting porn as well, it reminds me of the lack of women or people I see or interact with in real life. Since I only masturbate to porn, it makes me confused with my sexual taste. Whether it's real or porn induced?

I noticed as a result it has been easier to focus on certain things that matter...

I moved house almost a week ago to a shared flat. The price isn’t high for London but the flat is very modern. It has an induction cooker, first time using those and is a new building. It’s in North Greenwich, Greenwich peninsula. It seems like literally all the buildings there are less that 20 years old. It’s a new town.

I guess I have learnt or become aware of some things. I think by being a new town I feel that there is a lack of community and it feels really...

This question came to mind because of a few recent events.

(This was meant to be a question but changed to a blog)

My workplace has a Zoom meeting every Wednesdays. It's a casual one where we just meet up and talk to each other. Some people miss the meetings every few weeks. I missed this one and last weeks as I couldn't really be bothered to go. I called my colleague after though to say if there was any news on going back and he said no.

With the recent...