[B][I]But I still haven't found what I'm looking for[/I][/B]

I remember being young and doing things and blushing and stuttering and feeling like a fool so I stopped doing things. Yes, thats basically why people become avoidant and are still SA into their forties. I remember teachers picking on me to read aloud in class to apparently encourage me and help me as I was shy. So I blushed and stuttered and the other kids took the piss out of me so I became worse and even shyer and even...

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I often look at some of my older pictures for comfort. They bring back feelings of peace and contentment in times of stress. It helps in the same way a favourite song or TV program does.This was taken on a very warm May afternoon in 2010 on a walk in the Peak District not far from Bakewell. Its a lovely old leafy lane with virtually no traffic in the dappled shade of the trees. As usual I was alone but this time I...

[B][I]In these shoes every step I take is laced with madness. They fill me with pain and confusion and with thoughts that are not my own[/I][/B]
[B]Moments of Pleasure - Kate Bush[/B]


One of the biggest problems with SA I ever had was learning social skills in the first place. Thats because when people already think of you as weird or strange they avoid you and dont want to know you.You often see advice to keep going out and meeting people and just naturally assuming...

[B][I][SIZE="3"]Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should BURN and RAVE at close of day;
RAGE, RAGE against the dying of the light.[/SIZE][/I][/B]

I went to the cemetery on Monday as it was the 1st anniversary of my mothers death. It brought back a lot of memories( not always good)of past events. If you have known someone almost every day since you were born and then they vanish its bound to have an effect. I keep thinking of her being alive when...

[I][B]Why when there's so many of us are there people still alone?[/I]

Why - Tracy Chapman[/B]

I can walk out my front door right now and pass hundreds of people just going to the city centre and back. The earth is swarming with 7 billion people and growing fast. There are people every where it seems so why is it so f**king hard to find proper friends? Two reasons I think really, maybe, probably. First we as human beings are all extremely judgmental. Even the people...