Well...

My test was a complete flop. I managed to do only 2/3 questions. That sucks. Then my schools Learning Support department forced me to carry on the test and tried to motivate me. I hate people who do that.

After the exam people kept on asking me how the test went. I am too socially anxious to have a conversation with them so i just freeze and get really sweaty.

That's not the worst bit. After the exam i ended up being surrounded by people who...

So my first GCSE exam is next week Wednesday and i am killing myself rn worrying about it.

To make things worse i realised that i still have feelings for ... I really don't know what i should do.

Obviously i should be focusing on my GCSE's but its really difficult considering i see her every Tuesday and my 'friends' drag me infront of her every time.

Is it wrong to still like her after getting rejected? What should i do?

The title pretty much sums it up.

I'm alone, no-one would want to go out with someone like me. I mean, i play games and i spend whole days playing shogi online. Whenever i try to talk to people i sweat and i'm just kinda useless. I have no real good points about me. Looks like i'm going to be forever alone.

I'm bored because i have absolutely nothing to do with life. I guess GCSE's don't help but it still sucks.

GCSE's are stressing me out!!!!!
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So ... told people about me being rejected and now most of the people in the year below me know about it.

I am really panicky rn. My heart is pounding so I hid in the toilets. I don’t know what to do. I am pulling my hair out and I am not up for this. This had a great impact on me and now that other people know about it, it just hurts me more.

So, I just got rejected by ...

I don’t want sympathy from anyone but no one has an idea how much energy I had to put in to talk to her and to try not to shake out of control when i’m around her. My friends were right. I was just a shoulder for her to lean on.

All my efforts were for nothing and now I really don’t know what to do with myself.

Now I realise that I am a fail at life and to everyone.